Ive been long time obsessed by the game of chess.
Ive ever thought there should be magic and mystery lying behind the way the pieces are disposed on the board. There were the obscure rule spelled in mathematics and the dim light from the dusted covered window of a past century library. There was a decision and the needed to learn to play the game.
In that time I was obsessed by Russian literature, as well. I used to be often obsessed by something. In general I dont take pictures of my obsession, though. They wont appreciate it that much, I can imagine.
But the game needs strategy, needs patience, needs commitment, need stillness, need braveness. The game became a need. But Ive never been a good player. One day the wish to play started to fade out, and know I dont even remember the rules and how the place the pieces on the right place on the boards. That say I would have never been a natural.
One day I started to say any day life as big chessboard... you need strategy, patience, commitment, stillness, braveness, god knows what.
There is a problem with the game, and with the games in general, is that it is supposed someone win it. You know when you get into the riffle. But still someone has to lose. You are there, sit down, and you want to defeat the one which is sitting in front on you. Its either me or you. It is trivial, but then the magic of the game disappeared, and what make it different from boxing match, if not the muscle and the different attitude. There will someone going home, thinking at the move he should have made and didnt, on how the thing should have gone different, on how to spend the night, on how to win next time.
This Is The Key: The Winner.
Either if you are or not.
Did you played for that? I did play for that.
Really did I? I guess I did.
This is all made by a great deal of being selfish.
And how far I was, I used to be, I still being, from the person I thought Id been, and I wish I still could be, or will be one day. One day not too far.
. I wasnt talented anyway. And I should choose a better game to play.
Or better not play game.
In the meantime I will find some another lot of obsession not to take picture of.
And Ill grow flowers in the spring time, when there will be nay reason.
Yours,
stefano
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I'll be careful when I drive
'cause I want to see her once
before I die.
ONQ
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hi there sinister,
you're looking lovely - so many new and old email-faces in the last
few weeks (steven kado! robots! the signified! etc!). and, like,
reporting on struan in the bath, hello, new sinister heights of
Reporting Back, oh yes :) Yes, i've been keeping up despite the snow.
i'd like to second the praise of The Hidden Cameras. they are good
stuff. press:
http://www.nowtoronto.com/issues/2003-03-06/cover_story.php , which
compares them to who? yes, belle and sebastian, noneother.
you can listen to a studio session here:
http://www.justconcerts.com/concerts/concert.cfm?Concert_Id=98&Concert_IsLi…
eegh, that's an ugly link. however, it includes video footage (some
of which features s.kado giggling). and also, they're on *rough
trade* now. *and* they sometimes have t-shirts that say "music is my
boyfriend"! how great is that? i bet that even the ever-hetero,
ever-at-least-partially-well-intentioned mark casarrrrotto wants one.
i also heart the aisler's set, but, like my love for ken chu's
witticisms and ways with a collander, this has already been
established many times over.
sometimes i wish i were in the uk and/or europe so i could go to
clubs and shows and elite brighton beach beer-tasting festivals. i've
done it before. and i want it again. but i've got the snow to keep me
warm! no, that doesn't work. i've got libraries and on-line databases
and a whole wack of friends who can't get enough of big words and
intra-departmental flirting. spring is certainly about to be
springing and one can only worry/hope about what the shedding of
winter clothing will promote... how long will the so-called,
self-imposed moratorium on kissing last? how... long...??
the more i think about the new cronenberg film "spider", the more i
really really love it. this is always the way with me n' cronenberg.
i should be so lucky to find myself in a romantically similar
position: initially lulled by what appears to be traditional
narrative only to realize a certain creeping up of being creeped out
and then to be mesmerized and wanting more, and then to be, yes,
leaning my blissed-out head against the shoulder of Great Ideas in a
corner at some party where it's getting late but no one wants to go
home.
would that it were. or that it would be. or... well, what i really
need is a haircut. and some kind of small wearable/portable computer
that doesn't clash with my style or mutable identity. or, for that
matter, crash with it.
oh, i can spell love, but my keyboard doesn't have those keys.
fashion!
technology!
new lifestyle ideals!
robyn!
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dear sinister,
I've been drinking a good deal of tea lately. however,
I'm stuck with a huge box of Bigelow Earl Grey someone
left here, and I would rather be having PG Tips. the
outlook is obviously quite dim, as I am a college
student with no pocket money. what do I do?
signed,
lem
dear sinister,
I think what that girl ought to do is stop drinking so
much tea and instead find someone who will give her
the chords for "The Model," and also for the break in
"Women's Realm," as they aren't listed at the Jeepster
site and she hasn't got a piano nearby. and she should
stop playing "she's losing it" at all hours of the day
and night.
signed,
someone else
dear sinister,
this has gone far enough. someone please just send her
the chords and a big box of PG Tips already.
signed,
someone else entirely
--
love,
lem ;]
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Alternatively, look for a collective of oversexed
hyperdriven hormonal would-be hedonists:
half of sinister will be snogging in a corner/ the
toilets, the other half looking longingly/seedily at
one another wanting some hardcore lust satisfaction.
idleberry
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Hello Sinister
I can agree with Matt's recent post. It can be hard to
pull girls in a club. But I've had drunken ones think
that my glasses were the coolest things in the world
and want to try them on. It's a bit weird to let
people you don't know wear your glasses.
I'm hoping Trevor Horn will push through some synth
sounds on the new B&S record. I always thought
Electronic Renaissance needed an update.
For so lo-fi goodness I have two bands to recommend.
First is The Hidden Cameras who play what they
describe as gay, folk, church music. Second is
Saturday Looks Good To Me who sound like old 60s
records falling apart, but in a good way. Both groups
have 12+ members/contributers. How can you go wrong
with that?
Mark
p.s. How many Mark's are on this list?
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anyone else on the list going to see the aislers set in san francisco
tonight? probably a long shot, but who knows. but there'll be a group of
us downing beer and bourbon at the edinburgh castle around the corner
before the doors open. there was a great write-up of the aislers in the
local paper this week featuring a quote from stevie jackson calling them
'one of the best bands in america.'
http://www.sfweekly.com/issues/2003-03-05/music.html/1/index.html
i'm sitting here today 'working from home,' which is a marvellous idea and
which everyone who's compelled to work should do once a week. you can do
it with your shoes off. you can do it with your own pot of
industrial-strength coffee. you can do it with henry's dress playing at an
indiscreet volume. you can do it whilst two manic housecats fighting for
dominance use you as an obstacle in their steeplechase. i'm dishevelled
and a bit hungover from band practice and dj-ing last night - it was my
friend's last night dj-ing at Radio over in oakland, and he let me on the
tables for a dizzying hour or so. most of what i played was crap, but
'eighties fan' sounded incredible at high volume in the crowded bar.
ah, i've had enough 'work' for the morning. off into the sunshine of the
castro in search of lunch.
ian
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it's the dirty vicar here.
I don't know about you, but I wish people were more friendly. In particular
I'd like if people didn't mail the list to denounce the posts of other
subbers. That's not very friendly now, is it?
Because I am a very friendly person indeed, I am flying to NOTTINGHAM
tomorrow to make friends with people. If you live in Nottingham there are
loads of B&S/indie related things happening this weekend. Well, two anyway.
There's a Track & Field night on in the Rescue Rooms on Friday night, which
should be fun. I have long dreamed of attending a Track & Field night, and
now I shall, albeit not in the Betsy Trotwood.
There is even more fun to be had on Saturday night, with there being a
Bowlie Night meetup for B&S fans in the red room of the Rescue Rooms. This
looks all set to be a musical highlight of the year for many people, as the
kids will have discs spun for them by a phalanx of top quality DJs. Said DJs
include none other than my good self, and all will quail before the
uncompromising sounds I will play.
But a word of warning - this night is not for sectarian bigots, as it is
being organised by people from The Other B&S Internet Hobby. So if you were
a sectarian bigot and you went along, you might find yourself having to
interact with people oddly like yourself only subtly different. And you
wouldn't want that.
Right, now it is time to practice doing backflips.
bless you all,
DV
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Sometimes I take too many things for granted, like the phrase "taking things
for granted" I think I know what it means but I've never really thought
about why it means what it means, and I still haven't.
The park outside work is very pretty at the moment. It's not a very
standard pretty - like, all the leave on the trees have fallen off and the
ugly side of Euston train station isn't particularly picturesque, but the
colour, I forget about colour sometimes when I am over-obsessed with shapes
and sizes. Today the way the sun is shining through the blue sky onto the
bald branches has created all the best colours, like all of the ones you've
always wanted to choose for your windows desktop colours but can't quite
work out the RGB values to get them.
Anyway, I was going to tell you about the upside down badges, but Lucy has
beaten me to it. A quick search for "upside-down;badges" would give you a
whole list of posts about it and the one from none other than Princess
Honey.
http://www.missprint.org/sinister/mhonarc/199903/msg00238.html
featuring still one of the most sinister quotes from David Moore.
This morning I went onto google to look for some porn, and I found some
before even pressing the Search button!!! It was this naked bloke with a
the nob hanging out and everything. eew. And then i realised i didn't turn
the monitor on and it was just reflection. And also apparently today is
Michaelangelo's birthday therefore Google replaced their logo today with a
naked man.
I have never listened to Lemon Jelly, but I love lemon jelly.
I love you too sinister.
Ken
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Howdy doody neighbourinos,
So, let's picture the scene, it's a sweaty May evening in Glasgow's premiere
gig building (I've momentarily forgotton the name of the place - it may come
to me by the end of the post, and then you won't see this bit in brackets*),
I'm up at the front, in the standing zone, dancing like a nut job (although
in time and in unison with Theresa Lovely) to "MayFly" and I'm rubbing
shoulders with the Sinister elite. Now I can only ever guess at what you
are all like from your stories of unrequited teenage love and musical
preferences (I like Lemon Jelly too Sam) so unless you all wear T shirts and
badges saying "I'm in love with a girl/boy who doesn't know I exist" or "All
the ducks are swimming in the water" then I won't know who you are. Do you
all have faces painted with "I'm sinister, are you" written on? Or is it
tatooed on the back of your necks? (It's not on mine, and by crikey, it's a
difficult thing to check bon your own)
How will I know it's you?
Ah well,
Love and Humous to you all
Paulo
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Hello Sinister.
I have exams next week. Oh, how I long to do my last ever exam. That won't
be for about a year, though. So, I should be revising, which is probably why
I'm writing this post.
I made a little musical discovery last week, which may be quite out of date
for most of the discerning cognoscenti on Sinister, but still it's worthy of
note, I think. Said discovery comes in the form of Erin McKeown. Her music
is lovely; all bluesy folksy zany acousitca. I'm yet to see any pictures,
but her voice might make me spill my tea, if I weren't so averse to the
beverage.
Mark mentioned "spurts of B&S", which made me chuckle, in a juvenile way.
I've also been listening to rather a lot of Lemon Jelly, too. I've been a
fan for rather a while, and I went to see them play in Manchester the other
day. We got given party bags with balloons and badges and pens as we went
in. There wasn't a support band; instead, we all played bingo, and it was
very humourous. The reason I mention it, aside from their obvious
brilliance, is that it reminded me of B&S's more unorthodox side - playing
golf on stage, bringing out steel drum players half way through a gig. I
like stuff like this which is just a bit unpredictable.
I must admit, I'm not a huge fan of Trever Horn, although I'm disappointed
by the lack of smutty comments from the list given his gift of a surname.
The subject line is the answer to Mark Hester's question.
love,
Asm.x
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