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Sinister: i was looking for a job and then i found a job
by Archel Playforth 14 Nov '01

14 Nov '01

robin very kindly forwarded my initial response to the plane crash in new york, and i repeat the sentiments today. hope you're all ok. meanwhile, i thought i'd belatedly add to the love debate with a nice quote from kurt vonnegut: "Love is where you find it. I think it is foolish to go looking for it, and I think it can often be poisonous. I wish that people who are conventionally supposed to love each other would say to each other, when they fight, 'Please - a little less love, and a little more common decency.'" it's true that love is too often used as an excuse for cruelty, hysteria, violence etc, as if it makes it ok. a crime of passion is still a crime. however, vonnegut's vision of a world where relationships are based on 'common decency' sounds a bit boring for me... i went to see harry potter on saturday. and it ROCKED like a gigantic... rocking horse. or something. a feel-good movie without the slightest recourse to the easy comforts of romantic love. matt and i are slightly worried about the trend towards all things childish, though. on our way back from the cinema we saw several large groups of youths dressed in school uniforms, going to school disco type clubs. they were about 18 - ie. it was 2 years max since they'd been wearing those uniforms for real. seems that nostalgia now sets in before we've even finished with the direct experience. does it all mean that the world as it is is just too horrible to contemplate living in fully? well, whatever, i think harry potter will go down as a classic of family cinema to rival the never-ending story (which let's face it looks a little naff now). i was pleased to see that the creators of pop idol (on which a friend of a friend appears) felt that a good sesh on the DDR machine was valuable training for the future rich and famous. so you're already half-way there, ken... i wonder what chart position Waking up to us will reach? b&s might be worried to learn that dannii minogue is amongst the competition that week. luv archel xxx ps. the crunchy library book seems ok now. pps. glad you liked your tape, arik. i hope my contribution to the mighty rachels effort will be as successful :) *************************************** archel(a)iname.com For the best in new writing on the web, visit www.buzzwords.org.uk Contact us on buzzwords(a)bigfoot.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Re: hello...myfirsttime
by Carolyn Jacobson 14 Nov '01

14 Nov '01

On Mon, 29 Oct 2001, Carolyn Jacobson wrote: > hello > This is my first time writing here, as I just joined the list about a month ago. I > thought I might write a poem and see what you think. It's untitled, but > feel free to give it one if the mood strikes. > > My tears were supressed by the freedom of falling. Floating through warm > open blackness. It was only the epitome of nothingness that allowed me to > see the invisible sky as a vast starfield. All that I need to survive is > my own emotions, and the willingness to solve my unbelieving brain. But > when it hurts too much to cry, and feels to good to smile, I unknowingly > stumble into an oblivion. All along the boundaries, bright purple flames > flickered and sparked. The crackling was louder than ever before, and the > violet light blinded me. I tried to escape the emptiness, but there was > no exit. There was no way out! Then, in the midst of all the commotion > that failed to exist, I felt the thump of my own heart. The force that > causes my heart to beat, continuously, had come when uncalled, and will > remain, until the nature of my unconscious occurs in that manner again. I > am back in place. > It was written during a time when much confusion was cluttering my life. > Here's one written about 3 weeks ago, about the ending of one > relationship that was dragged out too long, and the beginning of something > that ended before it began > And the mountains chavged colors slowly > and teh air froze mid-sentence > and I could just leave now > and never look back, at your face full of anger > You're my stranger that will never be again > and is it just a coincidence that he came around while you were gone? > or is it a mistake that I fell for you at all? > And the rain turned to sorrow > and the tears turned to isolation > and I could throw it all away now and never look at the photographs > You're no longer my affection that I need anymore > And is it just an accident that I ended up with someone? > Or is it my fate to be alone? > And your eyes filled up with pain disguised as anger > and your smile faded into the background > and I could see your heart sink below the ocean waves > you're around too much, but never with anything to say. > > It must be over. > nothing special, just a little bit of useless thoughts, clogging the brain...anyways, the one thing you all should know about me is that my favorite belle and sebastian song at this moment(for it changes frequently)is Expectation. > If you read this far, thanks, and I hope to get some opinions. > much love, > carolyn > > +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Ouch - delurked
by Rob 13 Nov '01

13 Nov '01

Well I never thought I'd see my name mentioned on this lovely list, but now Joan of Dark has revealed my presence - I am the Rob of Brier Random's Close. I'm very glad the Christmas pressie exchange is on again, it's a wonderful idea and i received a couple of lovely pressies last year. My details will be winging their way to Laura Llew very soon. If anyone's going to see the White Stripes in Manchester on Wednesday and sees someone wearing a B&S ampersand t-shirt, say hello cos it might be me. -- Rob +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: B&S on New York Radio!
by Christian Smythe 13 Nov '01

13 Nov '01

This Friday WFUV in New York (www.wfuv.org) will feature B&S music all day, 6Am to 8PM. You can listen via their web site. WFUV is a publicly supported radio station (no commericals!) broadcast from Fordham University in the Bronx. Check it out! It should be great. This station is run by true music fans and they LOVE Belle & Sebastian. _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: fox in the snow, allright!
by Rachel oj 13 Nov '01

13 Nov '01

hey lovelies! i'm so sorry for my last post, i was a bit upset at the moment, but i'm happier now, so i'll wite a new post. and hopfully, a nicer one. anyway, i don't feel as bad about moving to sweden today. ok, maybe i'm nott the happiest ever about it, but i guess it'll work. still don't have a clue where we're gonna live though. i think that is what disturbs me the most. the not-knowing-anything-thing. i don't know how to handle that! i want to participate in the christmaspressent-thingy! that seems to be so grate! today it's coming lots of people to us. and i'll kind of die! it's my mother's friends who's having some sort of reunion or something... at our place!! why? she knows that i don't like being around lots of people, so why then? i jusat can't understand that! and i've got this huge english-test tomorrow. so i need it to be quiet so i can study! ok, that was just a stupid excuse. but really, i do have a test. though, my englishteacher loves me, so i know i'll get a good grade anyway. and i am the best one in our class in english, so i think it'll work out just fine. i got so jelaous when i red about the two lovely rachels day togehter. it were miss fruitloop and miss cornflake, right? maybe there was someone else, but in that way, i've forgotten it. sometime i've got to go to the us and meet the lovely sinisterpeople there. oh, you always seem to have such a good time! and i'm dead jelaous. oh, yes! the subject was "fox in the snow, allright!" so... i saw a fox today! in the snow, yes! ooh, it was lovely and i just sat there, smiling and thinking of belle & sebastian, and how grate stuart, lovely stuart looks. he must be the prettiest one alive! i'm a bit obsesset with him, but then, who isn't? hee hee. i've almost decided what songs i'm going to put on the rachel-mixt-tape. i bet our tape will be the gratest! i mean, we're rachels, right? rachels are probably the best in the world when it comes to mixed-tapes. oh, well. people are coming. angst. with all my love, rcahel orange juice _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: 101 ways to prepare root vegetables.
by Dairy Fairy 13 Nov '01

13 Nov '01

Hello there, haven't written for ages, so it may take a few lines for me to ease my fingers into action and get some words out. It doesn't help that my fingers are actually freezing cold. They are not behaving as usual and I am worried that I may be developing rheumatism, or some other condition that a seventeen year old really shouldn't have. I always forget that winter is cold. I mean, i know it is theoretically, but I forgetthat feeling when you walk along and everything stings with cold and you worry that your face is being blown around so much it will end up with the texture of a baked potato. I have a large corduroy/sheep wool coat to scare away jack frost, but he still paints my ears red and makes cold water soak up my flares to the knees. I like the fact that B+S are bringing out another single. I thought there may be a drought or even an end to their productivity after the flurry of, erm, productivity over summer. It will be nice to have something new to listen to in the winter because usually it is summer and I am happy anyway. Much more sensible to spread the smiles across the seasons. Today I am actually quite cheery because Manchester University have decided that i am responsible enough to turn into a doctor. i'm not convinced to be honest, but I like the idea of doing an operation with something like Belle and Sebastian in the background. Maybe I could convert patients whilst they were under anaesthetic. Hmm. I'm not sure these are the right kind of reasons to become a medical student. I watched 'Twister' on t.v last night. i have watched that film a disproportionate amount of times considering its level of quality. I just like the way they get in the centre of a hurricane and then stroll out with only a few hairs out of place in a 'messy but sexy' way. And the flying cows. heheh. cows. in the air. nothing better for comedy value. OOOH, the christmas pressie thing. That sounds fun. i did it last year and got some socks with toe sections and hair clips and stickers and ooh. yum. It's nice as well because you get to imagine who sent it. So that's an extra present of intrigue in itself. I am off to warm my tootsies and finger nail bits in a warmer room in the house, cheerio, Gracexxx ------------------------------------------------------- And she spent the rest of the day separating the bits from the marmalade, or, if you prefer, the marmalade from the bits. - Roger Hargreaves. Get 250 color business cards for FREE! http://businesscards.lycos.com/vp/fastpath/ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: "neil! is this some kind of sick joke? why isn't supper ready?"
by caleb ben moore 13 Nov '01

13 Nov '01

in response to amy's mention of rik mayall, all i have to say is that i have written a poem for cliff richard and it goes like this: "cliff, do you sometimes feel AS IF you REALLY ARE a cliff! with everyone trying to push you over it, something something something or ARE you cliff? or ARE you cliff?" sorry i kinda screwed that one up.....but thats ok, because i am the peoples poet! damn the fascists! other favourite young ones rik quote: "oh no! i've killed a hippy! i've killed a hippy and now i'll have to pay!" ha! props to amy for mentioning the young ones. viva rachels! caleb ben aka raw ===== And when I'm lying in my bed I think about life and I think about death and neither one particularly appeals to me and if the day came when I felt a natural emotion I'd get such a shock I'd probably lie in the middle of the street and die I'd lie down and die ------morrissey __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Find the one for you at Yahoo! Personals http://personals.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Christmas Pressies Exchange / Wisdom Disclosed
by Joan of Dark 13 Nov '01

13 Nov '01

Eeeeeeek!! Just when I had finished composing my post to Sinister, saying that , yes, I could undertake the Sini Presents Exchange this year as well, as so many people seemed to want it back, and I was about to send it to you all I checked my inbox again and.there it was! Ms Llews post!! Eeeeek eeeek! Good that I thought of checking the inbox before pressing send!! So now I have to type it all from the beginning. Meeeaaaaoow! Anyway Im happy to see that there seems to be someone else apart from me whos willing to organise it this year! Its a unique experiencebrings the spirit of christams all the more earlier! So just a few pices of useful advice I gained from last years organising 1) First of all PLEASE consult the archives for my post that I link HeRe: http://www.missprint.org/sinister/mhonarc/200012/msg00018.html it is crucial that you do so if you would like to participate so that you will understand the spirit of it and the way the whole thing is organised and carried out. 2) Here I would also like to quote a part of another post of mine from last year, giving the last few details http://www.missprint.org/sinister/mhonarc/200012/msg00053.html a)If the present requires some personal details of the receiver so as to be completed and any of the persons that are making something would like to ask for some details so as to personalise their gift and make it perfect, just drop me (Laura in this case) a line and I will be the one to ask her what her bust size is or whether he prefers peach to strawberry lip gloss.......... b)There has been a misunderstanding .Many of the newest memebrs or people that don't post oftenly thought that this exchange was only for the frequent pos(t)ers and thus asked me whether they were allowed to take part......The answer is a big smiling YES/ JA/ OUI/ NAI/ SI/ KE/ HAI/ SIM/ AYE/ DA (thanks to #sinister ) .Everybody who has subsribed to sinister is very VERY welcome!!!! We are getting sqeezy here, we have already started poking each other to make some room , so ...people come and lets all get cuddled up!!!But for god's sake keep your hands OFF the other people's private body parts......(speaking of which....... http://www.missprint.org/sinister/bodyparts/ This is the real spawn of SINister.....) 3) Here I would like to say that unfortunately ,things did not work out exactly the way we all wished for them to And I feel I should disclose the reasons why here The thing is that many people thought it would be very nice if they took part as they seemed to be willing to make and send their presents-at first-. But to a large extend this did not happenI ,for example, only got 2 of the 5 presents I was entitled to.And I was the one to organise it for Chrissakes!J ( a guy emailed me telling me that he could not send me my present because his girlfriend was jealous and would not let him.soeehhmmm be sure that your beloved one will not bitch you over that as well!!:P) So I dont want to think of what might have happened in the background I still have the addresses of ALL the people and their exchange partners though ,and I could give it a try and send the addressses to them,asking them to please consider settling this matter first. Because its really really bad, when someone has tried and sent the fruits of his efforts to someone, not to receive anything back , as a result of someone elses boredom or negligence So PLEASE be sure that you want to do this, its not something that costy or tiring, it requires just the minimum consideration on the matter.Dont just apply in the spur of the moment.But its vital you really want to do this But I heard so may really beautiful things that people made last year, I got green with envy!!! And ms Llew.. Have you huGed a belle and sebastian fan today?, we had the same present last year I guess! for everyone elses information and a bit of advertising: a lovely homemade t-shirt by Madame Katarina Karlsson from Sweden . Showing how foxy Sinister Red Foxes copulate on the front.... and that phrase written on the back. See what nice things you can get from Presents exchanges?? Niaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrr!! *dont worry, Im going through that Im a cat phase of my life* So..umm.what else. Noting I guess I managed to creep out of my lurkedom and post a normal email to the list, apart from the sick sad stories I usually postJ So Laura dearest, if you want I can disclose my precious info on how to ObJeCtIvElY draw the partners (write the names down, check the sinister photo pages, keep all the cute boys for yourself or the ones with the nice names.J and spare the others to the rest of the ones that have applied)..J just kiddingbut you can always do tricks last year I paired Brier Random with a Rob Collingwood that lived on Briers Close street in the UK. Plus you get to know all those exotic places like Talinn and Ballybay, Ilkey, Wading River and Pisgah Forest ;) and street names like Via Borgo Tiano , Yanigin Drive, Hunt Trail. Odos Polymerh, Schmiedelgasse etc etc !! And your mailbox is flooded with emails addressed to yOu! Aaawwww! Now I miss organising it!!! Aaahhhhnext year:) So, Im off to get a haircut again. Ill be back soon with details on The Sinister Gathering in AtHeNs-GrEeCe on the occasion of Stacey Dahlings birthday in Febrary;) now I guess I shouldnt be telling that early eh, Stacey? Anyhoo Bye bye! Joan meeeaaaaooow! =^o^= U ~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! Paint my floor green. Paint my ceiling black. Paint my walls blue. Paint my table white. Paint my door orange. Paint by piano pink. But I know that you cannot paint me. 800 Cherries Painty Paint Pots check this song out and tell me what you thinkI find it fabulous! _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Speculation
by mark w 13 Nov '01

13 Nov '01

Andy said: > >Alternatively it was hijacked and heading for the UN Building where a >meeting was about to convene to discuss the which future government would >be >putin place in Afghanistan. Remarkably also at nine oclock and precisely 2 >months after the other attacks. Bollocks. 2 months and a day, if my arithmetic is correct. And the UN building is on Rockaway Beach is it? News to me. >Will we ever get to the bottom of this incredibly coincidental 'accident'? >Maybe it'll fade into the same amnesia space as the russian airliner from >Israel that blew-up mysteriously just after the semptember 11th incident >over the black see. Yes, we will get to the bottom of this, accident or otherwise. That, however, is the job of the investigators at the NTSB and other agencies. Uninformed speculation like this just panics the public and serves no purpose. The airliner over the black sea was shot down by the Ukrainians by mistake, as they admitted the next day. James said: > >Right now, it looks like the engine either burned out and ignited the >fuel > >tanks, causing and explosion that sheared the engine and wing off, or > >another mechanical failure happened which caused the engine to seperate > >from > >the wing. > > Wow. Have you told the FAA this? It will take them weeks to come to a conclusion like that. Elena said: >I know in 2 months someone >will tell me again "but planes are the safest!". Yeah, right. It's the truth. I know it doesn't seem like it just now, but you have more chance of popping your clogs as you cycle round the town or on the drive to the airport. Rachel said: > >PLANE CRASH >Just a reminder: As far as I know, the investigation goes on. We >shouldn't jump to any conclusions. This plane crash in NY today is a >horrible tragedy in itself. I couldn't agree more. Let's just mourn the dead and wait for the facts to emerge in due course. They always do. Sorry if this post has been a little sharp. mark _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Am I Still Ill?
by Madeleine McNeil 13 Nov '01

13 Nov '01

Do you know, I solved all the problems of the NHS yesterday? Well, in my head, that is, whilst lying on a trolley coughing and hoping someone would notice me. The woman on the next trolley had pneumonia and the man over the way had had some nasty reaction to Prozac. Elsie, in the bay around the corner, had fallen of the toilet and was having difficulty making herself understood to the South African woman with the joint degree in physiotherapy and condescention. So, the problems with the NHS are: too much gossiping and not enough organisation. Oh, and stupid people like me, of course, who go to the doctor's surgery for some antibiotics and a quick go on the nebuliser for a nasty cold, and end up being sent to the hospital across town for a chest X-ray to make sure there's no clot on my lungs. I had meant to go to the doctor, and leave in plenty of time to make it to my lecture at 11 o'clock and then work at 3 o'clock. Little did I know I would be begging the consultant to let me out of the hospital at 11 o'clock AT NIGHT. I had an X ray done at 4 o'clock, seven hours before I was finally released. I kept asking if they were going to admit me overnight(because if they were I had to start working on my escape plan) and they kept saying they had to review my X ray. When the doctor finally looked at it, it took him no more than three minutes. He realised that I was not going to die and promptly (kind of....) let me out. I feel bad for moaning about the NHS, as they are over worked and under paid and have to put up with ungrateful time wasters like me. But all I wanted to do was go home...... And, much to my shame, I kept having to run off and have a little cry in the patient toilets that had no locks on the doors. AND the only books I had to entertain me were an Anthology of Critial Theory (there's only so much cheering up that Freud and Marx can offer a girl) and White Noise by Don Delillo (also, nothing much there to make a poor girl smile, unless it's in a bitter, ironic type way at the misery of life and the fear of death). AND I couldn't smoke fags, but that has kick started my giving up smoking regime, and I am now proud to say that I haven't had a cigarette since 3.30 pm on Sunday. I have, instead, taken to sniffing my smoky clothes and sniffing the two Silk Cut that I have hidden under the bed. Posts from now on will be filled with bitterness and rage and nicotine craving like never before. I've been smoking since I was a wee slip of a thing, 14 years old, and I used to smoke Embassy No 1 with my first boyfriend. We'd hide on Loughborough University Campus on our way home from school and furtively smoke and make out. Every good (and bad) thing in my life involved smoking. I'm not just Madeleine, I'm Madeleine who smokes fags. I think I'll go and listen to Hefner's Hymn For the Cigarettes and cry myself to sleep, to dream. Love and Nicorette Madeleine xxxx _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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