oh, sinister... le sigh. there are shelves and shelves and shelves of books on technology in the library. biotechnology. computer technology. history of technology. it's like having a category for, like, life - everything eventually just falls into it. well, it all will one day. mwah ha. ha. anyway, several of these books are now staring their spines at me from across the room, stacked up in the way daunting things tend to be. earlier i felt that i'd accomplished something today simply by finding these books and bringing them home, but then realized that i'd actually have to *read* these books. both an exciting and sigh-inducing prospect. my roommates are watching that ya-ya sisterhood movie (fuck the whole title, yo, knives, etc.). i am having nothing to do with that. i used to enjoy a good schlock-fest, but now, and i fully blame school for this, when i watch bad hollywood romantic-drama-comedies (dramadies, i've heard them called, but this reminds me of dromedaries. and then i've got, like, pictures of sandra bullock and hugh grant on a small camel in my head (in my head!) and that just ain't right. (and seriously, i'm both relieved and horrified that some genius finally put those two together in a movie. the queen and king of romantic comedy! you'll excuse me while i leave the theatre during the trailer.)) right, so when i watch such movies now, well, it's awful. i didn't even enjoy 'sweet home alabama' a while back - it was tortuous (yet i stayed? robyn shakes her head). this all calls into question my ability to enjoy any mainstream hollywood schlock! it used to be my out! my sunday matinee unwinding, my brain-numbing 90 minute vacation from life. yet now it only serves to take me further in! when i only want out of my brain for a while. related to all this is that i saw 'punch drunk love' last week. and the people ('critics') who are calling this film a romantic comedy clearly have no understanding of definitions of terms. we all *know* what 'romantic comedy' means (see bullock/grant ref above), and, while clearly playing on this term, 'punch drunk love' is not a 'romantic comendy', not even in the most self-reflexive of senses. in fact, i love it for its lack of self-reflexiveness, how it actually goes beyond 'subverting expectations' to making the viewer (okay, me) nervous and overwhelmed b/c there are no expectations to subvert even though i really wanted them, were i to have them, to be subverted. subvert! please! but noooo, i just sat there with my eyes wide and my heart kickin' it, saying 'what?! how?!' it freaked me out. but, yes, of course, in a good way. freaky freaky movie. if i were to make movies they would probably be like that. horror movies that no one realizes are horror movies until after they're over. it's, like, the horrodramady. get ready 21st century - a new kind of horror has hit the block and it's got hilarious miscommunication and heart-felt kissing in it! er. also, i made some really good applesauce the other day (the secret is: cloves). i think it calmed me down. and also alleviated the food-wasting guilt that was coming on every time i opened the fridge to see those neglected apples i'd bought oh so long ago. aw, crap, you didn't really need to know about the applesauce, did you? i got my student loan though, so i'm going out this week to stock my empty cupboards. but i'm sure i'll buy apples again, thinking that they're cheap and good for you, and then this cycle of guilt will replay itself. ah ha, but not if i make applesauce right away! i *can* solve my own problems, after all... i'm so glad sinister exists. and i'm not just saying that b/c there's a christmas present in it for me. :) i'm saying that b/c maybe i'm thinking too much. about thinking. about things. y'think? hrm and nrr and other sounds. robyn ===== I was reading the dictionary. I thought it was a poem about everything. ~Steven Wright ~~~ Robyn Fadden rfadden@yahoo.com Montreal, QC __________________________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? Yahoo! Mail Plus - Powerful. Affordable. Sign up now. http://mailplus.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+