I hope this letter finds you all well, maybe even eating chocolate, I am touched by all of you who have trouble with your contact lenses. I am blessed with relative ease in putting mine in. Now before you begin muttering to yourselves, "The lucky bastard, she sooooooo does not know her father" I am not blessed in that my need for them increased with each passing second. I went from not needing glasses to not being able to drive legally without them in a year. Every time I go without contacts I start to hear in my head "They let Kara go blind, let Kara go blind, let Kara go bli-i-ind. Phooey. Well I attended a wedding yesterday. I was a shock of color among the dark colors of middleaged people in my bright blue dress with one strap. I completely looked like a seventeen year old a wedding. I became convinced that the dj was a b&s fan. I asked him if he would play some for me. The silly lied that he didn't know them. I danced to the ramones anyway. The only other young people there were the wait staff and over the course of the night I developed a crush on one of them, a tall boy, too tall for his tux, how adorable. I smiled at him, and (gasp!) he smiled back. So it went throughout the night, until mother dear announced that we were leaving. I smiled again, but shyness took hold and I said nothing. The most I could manage was a feeble wave as I left. Now this morning I had convinced myself that it was for the best. I am exceptionally good at preserving the perfection of my lonliness. I thought "It would be bad to start something anyway, since I'll be of! ! f to college soon." I have sinc e changed my mind. I think there must be so many times where shyness gets the better of me and I don't know what I'm missing. I know someone who works with him, so I'm going to try to talk to him. I'm taking initiative and not resigning myself to continual defeat. I hope he doesn't think I'm weird. Phooey. Ich kann es ausdrucken keine andere Weise, Kara Jean* +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+