Enduring love? Well, yes, of course and no, not at all. Enduring Love is also a book (notice the single speech marks around those two words, that denotes that Im referring to the book and not to the noun and adjective I remember writing in an essay once that Macbeth is a play my English teacher quite correctly scribbled green ink in the margin to the effect of Macbeth is not a play, Macbeth is a play, Macbeth is a character in the play Macbeth and I understood everything). Enduring Love (again the book), isnt very good, Ian McEwan is to blame, being the author. Clever? Well yes and no, he can certainly turn on the style when he wants to, but is the style what we really want? Well yes and no, or to be more precise, no. What made the book annoying was the type of plot that, were it a TV movie, Channel Five would gladly screen it, mixed in with overly scientific, often ugly prose relating to the psychologies of each situation in the book. This mainly focussed on the largely dull, ageing (but to quote John Peel: Show me someone who *isnt* ageing ), male type and his on/off/sort of off/on/sort of on/sort of off/on/ambiguously ending relationship with a lady called Clarissa. McEwan's knowledge of science and psychology is enviable, precisely what makes the book annoying, for this is the style we dont want him to turn on. I wont spoil it for you but if you only read one book about a religious stalker who falls in love with the hero of the story during a freak hot air ballooning incident this year *dont* make it Enduring Love. I think it was Dorothy Parker (I hope so anyway, how awful it would be to have a quote falsely attributed to you), that said: This isnt a novel to be tossed aside gently, it should be thrown with great force. Im paraphrasing inevitably, but the sentiment is there. I was also going to write about people who start their newspapers at the back. But I realise I havent much else to say on the matter, and that such a phrase would be better kept back and used as part of a larger description of someone. For example: He was standing right in front of me, deliberating whether or not to purchase a Feeder album or not, I cursed him inwardly because I wanted to look at Fall records, but he was in the way; I reasoned that he was probably someone who started his newspaper at the back - Feeder fans generally are. This made me feel better, and I went to look at something else for a bit some Dylan CDs I think it was, and by the time I got back to the F section he had moved on. I never found out whether he bought that Feeder album or not. In a purely fictional situation like that the phrase works, gives something to the otherwise drab words and is the most interesting thing about the passage. I wonder though, how much of what I say is a quotation then, quoting myself. Storing up words inside you to recontextualise, or change for a different audience, perhaps to pass off as spontaneity seems callous, but I do it all the time. *cut* *change track* How our inflections and mannerisms change the shape of our thoughts in the space between our brain and our voice so that they come out as something quite different. Does this really matter? Are the perceptions people have of us not as true a reflection of our personalities as what we feel inside? Well, yes and no. Its too big a question to answer with anything concrete really. Its one of those novelty questions we ask to make ourselves feel better and less insignificant: If I keep questioning then I shall find answers. Except, comfortably, conveniently we wont. Its like talking about cultural differences but only alluding to the differences in spelling between colour and color or the contrast between elevator and lift. Doesnt get us anywhere, but its nice to think about it sometimes, and occasionally some truth might be got at, or some semblance of it at least. Im rambling, inevitably; but isnt the noble interaction between man and machine comforting! Words transformed from brain to keyboard to screen, its incredible really. Evolution in full flow, synapses triggering motor neurones (please correct my biology here, I'm almost inevitably wrong, I didn't deserve that 'B' at GCSE; I feel such a fraud), the whole of science and language and art and literature coming together. If I felt the need I could just tap at these keys with my stream of consciousness all night and feel a kind of plastic wholesomeness. When I was in primary school, and we had RM Nimbus 5s (isnt wallowing in nostalgia almost too easy to be fun?), and the very act of seeing what I had typed up on the screen, a screen which was tangible, but the words not, was fascinating. Intangible words on a tangible screen. Somewhere, in that mess of stubby prose there could be a metaphor for out times - something spurious about having the technology but not being able to control it. Enough doe-eyed wonder interspersed with melodramatic vitriol I think. Ill write something proper soon, Im building myself up to it by going through it in my head over and over, very therapeutic. Peace and love - Kieran _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. 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