Um, where do I start after not posting for 8 months? Same as usual. Complaintsville. I'm shite tonight. As per. I found out that I didn't get into university. I knew I wouldn't, but secretly I hoped I would. I wanted nothing more than to find out where it is I belong in this crazy life. Unfortunately, now I know I have no place. At least not this semester. Earlier this week I extricated myself from the job(less) market by landing a telemarketing position. Yeah, I know...what a windfall! In doing so I think I debased myself as much as is metaphysically possible. If I scraped any lower I'd be humorous. But tonight I came to the realisation that I will never have *happiness* and *telemarketing employment* concurrently. It is most definitely beyond me. So, I've decided I don't need to be a martyr. I'm going to try my hand at unemployment again. Hopefully, not having a job will make me feel less awful than having this one. I had to go out to a family dinner tonight, so I kinda went out of the pot and on to the hotplate. Some were kind, others weren't, but that's how it is, right? I decided before I got there that I would be quitting tomorrow. I still had to go through the usual stories though. You know, the ones where the entire family (10 or so at the table I think) lean back in their chairs and cackle so loudly that you're sure the whole restaurant is muttering under their breath about how "loud and obnoxious those people are"? Well, that was my family tonight. I just sat at the end of the table (nearest the wall, out of sight) and ate my sundae in silence. I mean, what more can one do? Throw cream and nuts? What and waste my passable dessert? Frankly, they're not worth it. Anyhow, I know I didn't have a point here, so I won't bother trying to find it again. I'm somewhat safe in the knowledge that I was ranting even before I started this post, and I'm certain I'll be ranting long after I finish it. Um, I apologise to anyone that feels cheated that I didn't make this into an ink polaroid. However, I still don't quite get the idea of them, so I doubt someone as challenged as I would be able to get as far as actually composing one. Hmm, how did this self-referential voice get in here? Well, there's been a lot that's happened since last we spoke. I went into hospital for a while. Then I came out for a while. Now I'm doing my best imitation of a hermit. Although there is still one large hurdle between me and true hermitdom. I get lonely. Kind of defeats the purpose of being a hermit, no? In other news, I have a new website. Also, there are new songs and other stuff. Soon I'll have a forum about "stuff", to go along with all the other "original" things I've created that are inherently worthless due to their severe lack of originality. Um, yeah, I think I'll get back in my box now. Jeremy _____________________ http://www.breams.co.uk Home of all things breamy +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+