halo sinister. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm autumn.. i came to my day job this morning with it in mind to get work done, since i forgot my c.v. i was going to update it, maybe start looking for another job... but i'm half wishing i could get laid off just to be able to sleep through december. i love the way the water streams down the windows, proving the chill outside, knowing it's toasty cozy inside my cocoon. harrison, my lover cat, snuggles with me. he's the softest thing, and so warm to wake up to. my own little hairy potter. but last night, i discovered he's afraid of the heater. he cried when it came on. he hid under the bed. it was the first time we've had the heater on since last winter. i hope he gets used to it, cos i do adore the warm draft through my lashes as i'm lounging about... and it would break my heart to have a winter with either a sad kitty or a cold wood floor. last night i put all my clothes away. that is quite a task for a clotheshorse. especially with a closet smaller than a refrigerator. i wonder why i can't let go of all those silly band tees? most of them are either faded to the last bit of color any thread could hold, or ten sizes too big. sometimes i give the excuse that someday i could have kids, and they'd the coolest kids on the block wearing my old tees. but mostly i tell myself that i have plans to make a quilt out of all of them. what a patchwork that would be: meat is murder next to republic diagonal from glory box... perhaps i'll give in to the notion soon: if harrison doesn't take to the heater, i'll certainly be in need of another duvet. i'm catching up to us: the past month of sinister mails that i've been too busy to spend much time with... i mussay, there have been some loverly moments. i'm swooning. sinister, i think i'm in love with you. and just as my headphones sang 'friday i'm in love', i read caleb ben's post: "...of course this is all very sudden, i admit, but it's just such a marvelous feeling to revel in, i really think it's going to be THE fashionable thing to do this autumn. you'd be smart to jump on the wagon folks, cause the love train's about to leave the station...." true, that!! i always love caleb's posts cos he has the knack for bring up all things swoonable, and sure this post in particular is from nearly a month ago, but it made me all swirly inside again! and i'm craving that feeling... the one that makes your whole body want to scream out to the world how grate it feels. and i'm on the verge.. one touch from *him* and i'd certainly fall head-over-heels.. but i'm being held back by sense, or reason, or doubt, or.. ?. (his, not mine- if it were up to me, i'd be in love everyday.) we should make lists of swoonables... categorize them like jeopardy. swoonables in rock: $100 bowie's 'heroes' $200 the split-second drum intro to omd's 'if you leave' $300 the psych furs $400 cocteau twins' 'blue bell knoll' $500 barney sumner's 'ow' $1000 stuart's piano posture ok, i can't swoon anymore. it's like sugar overdose. hearts, juju _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+