yea yea yea! yay i'm back, though i've never really left, you see? my stupid college had shut down my computer, phone and tv for over a week, but now i'm back, and ready to be arsed. so much has happened since i've returned to school that i am not sure if i can fit it into one large and generally unassuming post. i've been reading a bit and writing, whoa, yes! so far i've got around 8 pages of a first person narrative of a man reflecting upon his childhood in which many doctors misdiagnosed him being insane. though he knew he wasn't crazy, as a 16 year old he acted the way he thought he should have acted--therefore making himself nuts, trying to pretend he was in the first place. i like the idea, yet i'm not sure how to document such a downfall. oh oh oh so many crushes have passed during this first week. one ended horribly, though. a sorority sister of one of my good friends had caught my eyes all of last term, and then when i arrived last week, i saw her, she's an RA too! i made it my duty to speak with her. so after many many sleepless nights and forgotten meals that just sat upon their plates, i decided to act. honestly, it was such a simple crush, but i felt trapped in a marquez novel. faraway love is a virus, don't let anyone tell you any differently. i had never spoken with her, nor knew who she was, but she captured my every thought, and truly possessed all that i wished i was. well, after a few odd coincidences (her birthday was a day after mine, the 12th of august, just a week ago, almost) i struck up a conversation with her. my boyish charms were no match for her. it was obvious i was way out of my league. well during an RA leadership session we both made remarks about our classmates and teachers, but it was nothing deep. i quietly said, 'i'm blake'. and then she introduced herself, but after that, she got really quiet. as soon as the class ended, i was about to say something very sweetly, but she was already gone. i suppose i could have run after her and forced something, but sometimes a little is enough. i could go on, but my troubles are enough. b&s content: you all turned me on to the tindersticks. and i love everyone on this list for that. gracious kisses blake the nerdy shy eyed pacifist ~~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~ "I am not Jesus, though I have the same initials." - Jarvis Cocker +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+