hi everyone. stine here. upon reading caleb ben moore's post, i couldn't help but agree. I have been sad about the passing of mr. rogers all day. it's funny, even at the age of 25, it still doesn't occur to me that people are mortal. there are certain people who, in their passing, i missed a great deal. people whom i have never met. people who, in one instance, i never really even listened to. i remember when joey ramone died. i was just sick about it for days. i was never really a fan of the ramones, but i wasn't not a fan either. i think that they were instrumental, though perhaps not literally, in creating a path, and in many ways, and ideal, for the music that many of us listen to now. i remember listening to an interview with bono, or bongo if you're dirty vicar. :o) anyway. he was talking about how amazed he was when he learned that as joey ramone lay dying in his bed, he requested to hear the U2 song "In A Little While." Bono said that he had never felt more successful at anything, as he did when he heard that. that one of his heroes was thinking of a song he wrote in the final moments of his life. . Bono then went on to explain that that song was written as a sort of requieum for a hangover and after joey ramone's passing, it took on this beautiful, gospel quality. weird. i have been sick again lately. i don't know why. i have been eating what i am supposed to and not eating what i'm not supposed to. it's so bloody frustrating. i dream of the day when I can comfortably put on jeans, not having to worry about how swollen my stomach may be on a given day. dreaming of the day when I can wear cute clothes again, instead of the overalls and adidas warm up's that grace my wardrobe now. i wonder if i will ever get this "condition" of mine under control. if i have been diagnosed with the right thing even. it seems to me that after 3 or 4 months, you should start to feel a little bit better if you're behaving according to schedule. grr. i have also been plagued with something else. well, plagued is probably a scoach too dramatic a word. i have a week off in a couple of weeks. i was going to go to dallas, but i don't think i am going to anymore. i was thinking of going to minnesota to visit family for a few days, but i don't know that i want to do that either. i would love to go back to england/ireland, unfortunately that is just not an option right now. i need to get away from here though. i need to get away from my life for awhile. to go somewhere where i don't have $20,000 in medical bills. somewhere where i don't have to deal with my family constantly asking "How are you doing?" I know they mean well, some of them anyway, i'm just tired of it. let's see. in the past 9 months i have a) been in and out of hospitals b) been sick for the better part if that time c) gotten into so much trouble with money that I doubt my life will ever be better and d) lost my father...on christmas of all days. I'm doing swell. couldn't be better. jaysus. sorry bout that. my family is driving me nuts though. if any of you would be interested in a trade you can reach me at 555-9532. :o) ah well. onto bigger and better things. much love to all of you. i'm so glad that you're my neighbours. :o) in the words of oscar wilde....."in a little while, surely you'll be mine. in a little while i'll be there. in a little while, this hurt will hurt no more." ~stine "i can resist everything except temptation." __________________________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? Yahoo! Tax Center - forms, calculators, tips, more http://taxes.yahoo.com/ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+