like several others, i have just finished reading 'the perks of being a wallflower' which i, well, loved. but it was TWEE AS FUCK!!! it made my teeth hurt. it made me want to read about well-adjusted cheerleaders. or hard-boiled detectives. and yet i did love it. it has shoved me into a emotionally fragile place, it seems, and i will probably only get through the day without crying if i studiously avoid belle and sebastian, lovely sinister mails, and most of all, thinking. i have already 'gone weird' at matt this morning. sometimes it's just as difficult being in love as falling in it in the first place. lovely sinister mails: i'll take the risk of just giving quick props and hugs to dimitra and will; anything more and i'd have to desert my post at reception, or else be witnessed dissolving rapidly by a dozen baffled foreign students. dimitra claims she has never felt nervous meeting her many many sinisterines. much as i am looking forward to the brighton meet-up, i can't say the same thing. i truly am boring, shy, ignorant, boring, ugly, annoying and boring, and the fact that a lot of you don't realise this yet is terrifying. (nb. i am NOT fishing here, i really am feeling like this at the moment. although i admit it probably won't last and soon i'll switch to being insufferably happy, extrovert and smug.) my shyness was horribly abused on saturday at a theatre above a pub in camden. old friends from york were doing a comedy gig and forced me on stage for a sketch. i remembered why i hate the concept of audience participation so much. it was not a nice place to have our reunion, to put it mildly. plus my trains were being diverted via littlehampton, which is not a place i would choose to be diverted via. perhaps i should have foisted myself on ken, bapps et al instead, sounds like they had fun. still, i had a nice dinner, so that was something. the lightest touch can break a heart. luv archel xxx ps. richard wrote: BUZZBUZZBUZZBUZZ which was clearly meant to be a hint. clearly. so, i'll give in and point out that Buzzwords is up to date, tidy and sparkling at a NEW location: http://www.buzzwords.ndo.co.uk. ****************** Visit www.buzzwords.ndo.co.uk for the best new writing on the web. Email submissions to buzzwords@bigfoot.com <nb: site undergoing maintenance> +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+