This is one of me at 2.37 in the morning, in my slightly tidier (yet still unpleasantly messy) bedroom in Hackney, London. You might have expected me to have sorted the untidy bedroom out by now, being 29 and all. It's taken from the landing. The bedroom door isn't closed for once as my landlord is away, which provides some relief and psychological space. I'm sitting - in a way that's probably very bad for my back - on a 'back chair', i.e. something that is supposed to encourage you to adopt a posture that is good for your back. If you sit on it in the right way, of course. I'm mostly dressed, and have the taste of dental mouthwash in my mouth (though admittedly that is hard to see). I'm relatively clean shaven by my standards, just a couple of days growth. My long hair is tied back, it is to be cut off soon I decided the previous day. The expression on my face doesn't really give away my feelings, as I sit silently at my computer, typing, and taking care with grammar for once. I've recently found out by email, that a legal department at a prestigious hospital in Los Angeles have said that a member of staff isn't allowed to sign a training agreement. It was part of a scheme that would have entitled me to get a visa to do a 2 month Occupational Therapy fieldwork placement in April. I'm reflecting as I type, upon the conversation I had a short while ago with a wonderful fellow Belle & Sebastian fan, I've been lucky enough to call my girlfriend for the past few months. We've acknowledged that this probably means the end of our relationship and that it probably wouldn't make sense for me to come out for another holiday. I'd never told anyone before I met her that I loved them. jim x p.s. If you (or your close relative) happen to be on the Los Angeles County Department Of Health Board of Supervisors then you could solve my problem. But you may be slightly busy with your imploding health infrastructure, I do appreciate. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+