i know it's faux pas but i just wanted to say if i offended anyone with what i said earlier i didnt' mean to, i wouldn't say it ws directed at me personally, and dont' want to increase the strife. if anyone thinks that i am just annoying and doesnt' want to hear me, then i wish they would say so to me directly, and i will take it as it comes. i never intended to come in and act all loud and ruin everyone's fun. i dont 'want to feel like a gatecrasher. i don't know why iit upsets me so much, i'm just sad about this. sad that david and katrina felt they were being attacked, rather unfairly i might add IMO. and that people are having to check out. if i am one of the people who are ruining the list then i never meant to be. i'm not so stupid and shallow that all i care about is who is the cutest one, etc!!! the only reason i ever loved B&S was because their music touched me in a way i haven't felt for very long. i didnt' even know what all of them looked like until i saw them in person, and i didnt' care. i just thought that i t was amusing, maybe i was wrong. My sense of humor may just be grating and immature. maybe i shouldnt' be writing this at all, if that's the case, then well i'm very sorry, but i felt i should explain myself and apologize if i offended anyone cos i didnt' mean to. i know i sound like a very ridiculous person sometimes it's just my way of dealing with life, when things get rough, i just start making jokes, and it's not always fun, it's what i've done all my life and sometimes i hate it i've been having a hard time in my life now and belleandsebastian and all the joys of their songs have been something that gives me the joy i need to move forward one little bit at a time, along with other very small things, and that is the reason. it distracts me. i dont want to unburden my personal crap here and i will not, only to say that the music is the reason, and i think that's why all of us are here, but if i shouldn't be here then i will take that into account, and perhaps i'm jumping the gun, i just get really embarrassed if i think that i have gone too far, and i do that a lot in my life,and it is never easy. i'm just overly sensitive and i apologize for all of that. i won't post for a couple days to make up for this twice daily post. a couple days at least. however i do love all of you and i'm not leaving as of yet, just to be clear about that. unless you all come clamoring to my doorstep with pitchforks and torches, then i'll have to give in with what's left o fmy dignity, pack my bags and leave only footprints. i certainly dont' love christmas, as i have told many people. someone who is sick on peanut butter chips and shame +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list please mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". For list archives and searching, list rules, FAQ, poor jokes etc, see http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +---+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" +---+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+