sinister! ohmygod, blow-by-blow descriptions of the queue for Model Behaviour! how brilliant is miss marianna?! she is all class, but so very hott&nasty too. (and david foster wallace certain *does* kick ass. but does he *lately*? discuss.) watching the footage of the queue and auditions for Popstars (canadian version, bien sur) was one of my favourite parts of that show. so painful, so elating, so entertaining. there's something to be said for getting to watch emotion that you don't have to participate in. the whole actual and for real 'dealing with emotions' thing can really be draining. (i'm mostly being facetious here. but, as usual, not entirely.) the other night i finally saw the buffy musical episode. i fell off the couch in amazement and didn't move until a commercial break. that is how good it was. the floor was cold and hard. cold and hard like, oh ferget it. i finally bought the new wilco album 'yankee foxtrot hotel' (which is the greatest title ever if you listen to the album with it's radio code voice saying those words. yeah!) it's a fabulous album (i put it in my work bag today with some other cds and thought 'y'know, robyn, you're really only going to listen to that album today so why bring all the others?' and i was right) and it completely appeals to the small parts of me that are, in no particular order: hopelessly romantic, depressed and wallowing in it, foolish. but really, a good mix of things though. i'm a sucker for the mixed emotion, me. no, that's not true. i mostly like it cut and dried and conveniently pre-wrapped in cellophane with a big huge label declaring things like: 'happy!', 'sad!', 'love!', 'unadulterated pleasure!', 'depressed with reason!', 'rad!', the list goes on. of course it does. i guess emotion is kind of sold to us on many levels anyway 'these days', so this isn't as figurative as i'd like it to be. or perhaps would not like it to be. am i supposed to sigh at this point? i have no idea. i also have the new (to me) sodastream 'the hill for company' (which is so very sodastream and therefore makes me happy) and the new russian futurists (which is only 27 minutes long, but a-okay!). also, now i have no money! hahaha. i actually went to the record store with the *express purpose* of buying mum tickets but they did not have them in yet and then i looked at the new music wall and there were all these things! and also! vilkas is my new hero. i've never met the girl, but she is *great* and rawks and should form a 'flirty-yet-somehow-shy' group with me and a bunch of other sinister girls (i'm sure you know who you are, yeah). i don't know what this group would accomplish, but ideas are fun to share, so there you go. maybe we will all just do what we do and rock our respective houses. it's called rawkin' the haus, yo. and, perhaps lastly, if only b/c i didn't know where to put this paragraph: this whole weblog thing is worrying me. in a way i want one and think it's cool and admire a lot of weblogs out there (even though i feel all weird and voyeuristic, but that's an issue for another email), but in another way, i so totally do not want one. i think that maybe if i wrote it from the perspective of something inanimate then it might be okay. but okay, anyway, why oh why oh why did it have to be shortened down to 'blog'?! it's totally criminal. does that word not just sound awful? i don't even want to say it out loud. it has no grace. the 'b' with 'log', it's just not a nice combination. and, really, 'weblog' is only one more measly syllable. long live syllables! in a multi way! um. that said. happy 4th of july to all you 'mericans! and have a fun glasgow picnic to all you people over there of various nationalities! robyn ===== I was reading the dictionary. I thought it was a poem about everything. ~Steven Wright ~~~ Robyn Fadden rfadden@yahoo.com Vancouver, BC __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Sign up for SBC Yahoo! Dial - First Month Free http://sbc.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+