If there's a certain quota of music that uplifts one, makes one happy, and joyful, and elated, then there is an equal half that throws one into despair, sadness and longing. Right now, our friends B&S are throwing me for a nasty spin. Why? It's that painful thing known as song association. I just spent my xmas break laughing, playing, and dreaming, and now, i'm at school, and I'm depressed, and I miss my friends. All last month we'd be driving around, singing along to B&S, with the windows down, and the wind was everywhere. I can't imagine how bright the sun was those days, for it might have blinded me instantly if I had glanced into the yellow core. Now, as I lay in my room, and listen to Slow Graffitti, I become a prisoner of my own sadness. It's all I think about--how it used to be, and how I wish it was again. The fault doesn't lie with B&S, but rather, with me. My own legion of sadness comes from this association with B&S--happiness. I think that's why they make music in the first place. Has anyone wanted to tell someone honestly how much they mean to you? But you didn't for the reason it might sound silly, or sad, or strange? Sometimes I want to tell everyone that I miss them so much that it prevents me from walking, and chewing. Yet, I resist, for distance is often times the most effective way of persuasion. I've got more, but I'll save it. Love to you all, blake ~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~- I'm sorry like atari... "We try harder and harder, tryin' to get our way, but it's a long, long wait until Judgement Day. So settle your affairs and take your time, for everything in the world is yours and mine. Yours and mine." --Pete Townshend, '68 +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list please mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". For list archives and searching, list rules, FAQ, poor jokes etc, see http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +---+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" +---+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+