Hello Dear Strangers, Because I am now an outer extrovert but an inner introvert I have been a lurker for years other than I think 3 posts. I chimed in for musical thoughts and then fled again into the wilderness. I always understood the lonely grey joy of early B&S and the like, but the social part of this mass group thing still baffles me... And anyway it is here, reading these posts, that I preserve my inner gawky self while I have outwardly adjusted to life in a megalopolis.* I can still come home and be a wallflower on my own computer screen, when in real life I have to be a quite a bit more aggressive. I suspect there are others like me? But Sinister, is there a there there? For some reason Marisa's (another stranger to me) email jostled me out of my computer haze and got me to post again... Why? The subjects: -Ken whom I've never met feels like the Justin Timberlake (or choose your flavor) of Sinister. He's always on the cover of the tabloids in the Sinister checkout line. A nexus? I met another sinisterette a while back (hi KK!) who said that she met him somewhere, somehow and felt like she'd met a celebrity. I could tell by her blush that she meant it. The guy has amazing zest and I bless him though he appears to live in an untouchable magic world called Sinisterland, or Scotland, or something. I find the role of "Ken" in my life as a lurker interesting and bizarre, but definitely not bad. I trust... in real life... he is a real person! -I really really wanna finish an album of my own. And Marisa's joy at the idea of a band of dear ones that will 'rise to the top of the land' is bittersweet for me, for if I'd made myself more known to this collective of loners for all these years, I'd have the friends in reality that I have only in 'fantasy', a fantasy that usually exists only in post-drinking, email-checking, Sinister-folder perusing stupor. But as Morrissey would tell us, shyness is nice.... I am trying to dig up those last weeds of shyness so I can just put them in a scrapbook, with the title: For Rainy Days Only. -I still like Canada, and the Scotland I've never seen. So there it is. I guess my real question is: do you guys all know each other? -Ethan *(I live in a place called Los Angeles - Koreatown)** **(I like asterisks) +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+