yeah so i watched tv tonight. shock shock shock. yes. and i was most disturbed. 'dateline' which i think is an awful show. it's just a glorified jerry springer. like oprah. they just have status. but they all exploit people. so to my point. there is this asscow who is justifying rape! if you can believe it. he says it is a learned thing. natural from out 'caveman' days. this study focuses on men. but for the male side i will awknowledge that women rape as well. but it is more common for men to be the agressor. but yes so. i understand men are far more agressive most of the time in sex. and all this shit. but spare me there is no LEARNED BEHAVIOUR HERE! oh my god. i'm beside myself. there is nothing natural about putting a gun to a womans head and beating her and then ramming your penis against her body and destrying something she once thought she had control of. when you force someone to do something that is not something they chose to partake in it is a violation beyond words. bah. well i had a dream with B&S. but like all it was, was me standing on a stage singing electronic renaissance. and i couldn't remember the words. and i was embarrassed. it is stupid i know but it's odd i have a dream regarding a group i listen to. i never have dreams about people i know or music related things. we went to see the house it was pure joy. sigh. it needs a lot of internal cosmetic fixups but other than that it is a sound house and it does have windows unlike what my friend stated. it's just they are multipaned windows and so a few bits are knocked out here and there. and the house was once used as a hospital for shock therapy treatments which is most scarey. and one room upstairs has partial padding on the wall. which is amazing. but my friend mike has claimed that room and sami and jeff claimed the shock treatment room. not that i mind. i mean honestly would any of you want to sleep in a room like that? scarey if you ask me. the hospital wasn't for crazies it was used for drunks and druggies. but all in all shock treatment isn't something i would have nor do i now condone. but the house is very promising. it won'tbe ready for a few months which is good because i don't have a job. so that will give me time. i'm reading rosemary's baby i haven't gotten to the scarey bits yet. but i'm anticipateing it with every page i turn. i probably shouldn't read anymore tonight considering what a pussy i am and i'll get scared and have to sleep with the lights on, i used to be able to watch it all but since i've grown up my imagination is evil and so i can't tolerate it much. well sigh i probably will finish it tonight knowing me. i'm a book whore. yes. ok now i'm going. i've cooled down i've expressed my anger take care love and squishy things. ciao bella/bello iris see that look? that look in my eye? thats my booty look._cabdriver_from_200cigarettes_ StandHere http://www.angelfire.com/journal/standhere/index.html +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@missprint.org". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@missprint.org". WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+