here i am- your graphic equaliser. or something like that. will you have me wills? as a new member in your team? a member who is almost always late and most sleepy in the mornings. but i WILL try my best and.. yeah.i will try my best. plus i'm super friendly and funny when i'm tipsy. or at least so i've been told. it could be of cause nasty rumour only told to make fun of me. i was thinking about a name i would have if i will be accepted. something like *will-i-am* or *will-is*. *will-is* specially because there was.. there is a really cool car in Russia called that. or if it has to be food related then would something like *will odour* do? it's kind of food related. and the other game that caleb ben has created to specially please all of us who speak different languages. don't you think he's amazing? i do. estonia is in, for sure, as far as i have a word to say about the issue. what now follows is personal. i haven't really told anybody that, i hardly do tell anyone about things like that. but it feels good to write about it here. ********* personal stuff , totally allowed to be skipped********** mmm...it's about half a year now since i broke up from my last boyfriend. it 's kind of long time but on the other hand...he hurt me so bad i don't dare to start new relationship just yet. and i sort of like to be alone. at least it's far more better to sit and watch the sunset all by yourself than with a guy who can insult you just like that, without any understandable reason. it was wonderful in the beginning though..he seemed to care and had this look in his eyes.you know. i thought it meant something. but then, few months later he started to become really nasty and say these things out of thin air. like i would say something like.. -"ooh, look at this butterfly on this cornflower, isn't it beautiful?" him: -gosh, you're so childish and stupid. what's there to care for? or -"would you hug me please i'm cold and i'd like to feel your hands around me?" "i can't i'm busy right now. put your stupid cardigan on, girl." it went on like that for month and a half. i still felt that maybe i was doing something wrong and i became more and more silent. until there was nothing to say really. then i went to Helsinki for half a year and he didn't call me even once. i called him sometimes, he seemed slightly glad once. after when i came back i heard that he had slept with few girls since i was away. i ended it right there. i haven't seen him since January. i'm glad i haven't it's still painful. thank you if you have listened, it meant a lot to me. ********end of personal stuff**************** actually i have a content too. there was a commercial about the support to young families in Estonian tv about half a year ago. and the soundtrack to it was Belle and Sebastians' we rule the school. it was chosen totally because of the melody, i can't think of any other reason. there. i finally let you know, my conscious is clear. have nice autumn days and kick the golden leaves. it's fun and brings smile on your face. much love, ulla p.s. Madeleine, sweetie, i will post your notebook tomorrow, i already packed it. p.p.s. rachel's team is fantastic too. super. p.p.s. much luck to david stankin' on his trip. everything will go better that you thought it will. i'm a true advertiser for my (hopefully) team. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+