...hmmmph. yeah, right. why did no-one warn me, that on exiting the world of loner nerdness, stripping my whole personality away and rebuilding it in order to make myself socially acceptable, relationships would just be confusing and painful? but nevertheless wothwhile. unless I'm in the mood for sticking to my old maxim that "happiness is an overdose of endorphins that you are temporarily powerless to control", which it feels like half the time anyway. I'm almost just wanting to be single again and have just the rock-bottom of my feelings to really believe in, but that would mean leaving certain things behind, ahem, that I've, er, never had before. and I'd miss her company, the fact that I've actually found someone with a personality, interests & musical tastes just like mine, and that I can now, in time, join the almighty legions of couples who swan around the supermarket where I work looking like they're completely unaware that they're actually in a public place. I take my hat off to all of them, and may they never find out what I fantasise about, involving strichnine, whilst I'm scanning the food they're buying. but anyway, with all of that going on, I haven't really been living in the real world much. haven't been able to concentrate on exams, so I suppose I'll fail them all (walked out of one of them far too early, just because I wanted to run away somewhere and let some energy out), and I haven't been paying much attention to anything else, save reading what I can of all the Sinister messages (which are great as always). this means I've completely forgotten the following things: -when's the album coming out? (Fold your pants child, of course, as I'm calling it) this is just my total music geek nature showing through, but I couldn't bear to buy it on the second day it comes out (was down to buy TBWTAS at 9 a.m. on the Monday morning!) so I must know. from the messages I've been reading from those of you who've had wee advance tasters, I'm certainly looking forward to it. -when's the Edinburgh picnic again, and where exactly? I really should save more messages instead of deleting so many, but I now only have vaguely misty recollections of it being on June 10th, and can't remember where at all. oh well, now I've got to go off and change for work again, and attempt that most impossible of tasks for a young man first of all: trying to iron a shirt. I look forward to scalding my arms with boiling water. I really do, actually. pressing little gauze pads against a slashed and severed sky to try and stop the rain, Alan. ________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+