Okay, well here's my stab at the ink polaroids contest....I would love those posters...sigh: Polaroid I. Look, these are a year and a half old already! Ben and I are in a record shop. We?re flipping through the seven inches. He?s smiling; Ben is always smiling. That's part of his dashing character. He?s pointing out a new single from some Detroit space rock band. He looks fine and slim in his orange Spiny Anteaters t-shirt. He has never ever worn a collared shirt in my presence. I am wearing my brown corderoy jacket. I am not smiling, but I am not scowling either. I guess best put would be to say that I look somewhat melancholy, reflective, preoccupied. I remember that I was rather distracted and though I am holding it, I am not really aware of the Tullycraft single I?ve picked up. II. Here we are standing on the street in front of Ben?s car. It is a silly little white sports coupe. It is nitetime and St. Mark?s Place is a charming blur of activity and lights in the background. Speaking of lights, the streetlamp overhead is terribly bright and has all but washed out Ben?s face, but I know that he was still smiling. Ben is always smiling. He has a brown sack full of new records under one arm; my hand is in his left hand. As for me, my bleachy bangs are all in my face. I guess I will probably never see my hair?s natural colour again. If you look close, you can see tears coming up in my eyes. III. Oh dear, Ben and I are kissing! This is not a positive sign, though. We are in his car now. This is when we broke up for good. Just prior to the kiss I asked him why we were spending so many months pretending to be in love, when it was obvious that he would be happier to just be best friends. I remember exactly what he said, ?I?m ashamed because I should be in love with you, but being in love just isn?t important to me.? Then we broke up, but had one last kiss for the road, to prove we would stay on as best friends. If you look really close at this polaroid, you can see tears streaking my cheeks. there you go, sorry to have bored any of you--- Kelso Jacks NYC ----------------------------------------------------------------------- . This message was brought to you by the Sinister mailing list. . To send to the list please mail "sinister@majordomo.net". . For subscribing, unsubscribing and other list information please see . http://www.majordomo.net/sinister . For questions about how the list works mail owner-sinister@majordomo.net -----------------------------------------------------------------------