I left to visit home for the break leaving behind a rather sweet relationship. Two weeks later I return and he has a ring from (or rather for) his ex-girlfriend. Needless to say, I was a little distraught and I don't know what to do with myself anymore. The video in astronomy today made me cry; the slow earthrise over the barren moon in the total darkness was so beautiful and I felt so insignificant that I just cried. And I didn't even manage to take notes. The rest of the day was spent riding the Seattle city bus around, aimlessly, whilst spinning 'If You're Feeling Sinister' and staring out the window. When I don't know what to do with myself, I sit on a bus. (That's awfully twee, isn't it?) The bus, however, never accomplishes much; invariably it just brings me back to where I started and I still feel worthless and afraid to go back to astronomy; I'll just cry again because it's so beautiful and I feel so insignificant. So, there's really no B&S content there (except to possibly mention the "I'm Waking Up to Us" EP has grown on me to the point where it's my favorite collection of three little songs) but I needed to get this out somewhere other than my journal. Ta, erin PS -- Thanks to miss Rebecca for the wonderful lion story. It was very well-timed. _____________________________________________________________ Are you lazy? Get your Free E-mail at http://www.Lazymail.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+