ah yes Ive been doing a lot of that recently since finishing my finals (HOORAY) well it should be shouldnt it? but no, the simple things really arent as great as you imagine them to be when your studying lots and lots. I actually handled the old having final exams thing very badly and decided upon insomnia, irritability, heartburn and irrationality as a means of getting through them. In the second exam I got that disapearance of all thoughts thing that I thought only happened to other people who only really made it up anyway. I had to leave the exam hall to cry lots only to be followed by an invigilator who tried to comfort me in very pigeon English (he was Italian see) by saying such things as `some of the most successful people in the world don't have degrees' and `you can always repeat'. This made me cry some more but also made me want to go back into the exam hall to get away from the least comforting man in the world which was very embarrasing because every one looks up to see the red eyed girl with a look of pity. I did manage to do the rest of the exam though so it was alright (in case you were wondering) I kind of wish I was out at picnics like most of you probably are. I left the house for the first time yesterday and kind of had a picnic. first I went to the cinema to see a film called the virgin suicides. We chose to go and see that because we thought it sounded funny but disturbing was actually how it turned out to be. It was good though, very good actually but I never really decide what it is that I like or dont like about a film and lots of other thoughts about it until several days after when Im walking down a road or on a bus or looking at a group of strangers or something. Anyway we then went on our picnic before which we went to pet dogs at an RSPCA stand thing. We gave money to a man who, at first appeared to have very nicely given up his Friday to collect for charity but gradually revealed himself for the horrible sleezy man he was making such comments as `while your down there' to my friend when she dropped some change and 'here you should have a rabbit badge, I bet you go like one ha ha ha ha'. `your not interested in preventing cruelty to animals at all' we said as we ran as fast as we could away from the horrible man. Later on we saw him shouting obsenities at frightened school girls. Our picnic was a bit odd really we decided to place ourselves strategically next to three crusty men with two litre flagans of cider who decided upon us as perfect suitors and insisted we come over for a friendly slug of their cider. Each one picked who best of my friends he was suited to and then one of them said to another ` I dont like your one much' which made us a laugh uncontrolably which made them thinking that we were flattered by their attention which then sent a whole ball rolling type scenario until it was time to go home. I saw the legal man video on no disco the other night there and I have to say I didnt really like it that much. It was just too all over the place or something. I also didnt like the way Sarah only gets a brief look in at the start. The only bit I really liked was when one of the two men attempts to wave at one of the transvestites and the other man stopped him at least I think thats what was happening but possibly I completely misinterpreted it. As for the song well I like it for what it is but wouldnt really call for much more of that sort of thing in a big hurry if that makes any sense (mental image of all 7 members of belle and sebastian taking a careful mental note of Caroline's insightful comments). Im going to New York to get as far away from Dublin as I possibly can in 2 weeks. Not that I dont like Dublin but I just need to leave it for a while but this scares me lots. My friend Bryan says that theres an accomodation crisis there at the moment and that Ill have to live in a rubbish bin like oscar out of sesame street. I think things that are likely to go against me in New York are a) being very shy and unassertive, b) having no sense of direction and being very indecisive c) having skin that burns in 5 minutes of exposure to the sun and well of course having no job or accomodation. anyway I would very much appreciate any help/ advice etc. from any kind New Yorkers. Isuppose I better go now as I have red hair dye in my hair which I must wash out which also seems to have permanently stained the palms of my hand red and underneath my nails too.Oh I got Hefner's breaking gods heart and its quite beautiful. Bye Bye Sinister Caroline xxxxyyyyyyzzzp. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. 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