I was going to write to you, about the Usher Hall gig, but I couldn't be bothered, and decided "someone else will do it". So it's my last week at work, before we break up for Christmas. I thought this week was going to be chaotic, and it has, a bit, but not in the way I thought it would be. O me, O the Pessimist. I find it works out better that way though. I can really feel Christmas descending rather rapidly upon my life. I've been casually ignoring it, but I feel unable to do so anymore. My boyfriend is more organised than I am, having already done some of his christmas shopping. I think he surprised himself too - he nearly bought more presents for the people he'd already bought presents for, becuase he forgot he'd bought presents for them already, and wasn't used to being so organised. As for me, well, I think I'm going to have to blitz it. Go out for a day and bang bang bang, run from shop to shop like I'm on Supermarket Sweep, only remembering to pay for things. I'm not that fussed about Christmas as I used to be. Christmas when you're a kid is great. Santa was a bit scary though. I didn't really understand why my parents were comfortable with an old man creeping into my bedroom to put things into my socks when I was asleep. I didn't totally believe in him, but there was always the nagging doubt that he did exist. The doubt that had me hiding under the duvet at 2am, when I'd woken in the middle of the night, too scared to come out, and sweating with fear incase I saw him. Or at 3am, when I was too scared to go down stairs, even though he'd filled my stocking, in case he hadn't finished his delivery. I would often sit and go through my stocking presents, and look and play with the toys. And then I'd creep into my little brothers room, have a nosey through his stocking, and swap my tangerines with his chocolate bars, before waking him up, so he could "officially" open his stocking, and I'd feign surprise as he'd show me the cool toys he'd got. I don't know if he ever worked out why he always got 6 tangerines and no chocolate from Santa. Still, I did him a favour. He never ended up with fillings in his teeth. I'd go and wake my parents, around 4am, to take me down stairs and start opening my presents. One year, I woke every hour between 1 and 7am, and went to see my parents and woke them up and asked "can we go and see if Santa's been yet?". Impatient child that I was. When I got older, around 10 or so, I worked out that if I set my dad's alarm clock an hour forward, then he'd get up earlier. That was the year he said "I'm not getting up until 7am". I was so tired, I ended up going back to bed. And dad? Well, he woke at what he thought was 7:30am, and felt horribly guilty for sleeping in, and came to wake me and my brother, to open our presents. It was boxing day before I told him that I'd set his alarm clock forward by an hour. I hope I never have a child like me, when I'm older. Snogs and mistletoe, idles x ===== http://groups.yahoo.com/group/corduroysmoke/ starting playground gossip and passing notes __________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? New Yahoo! Photos - easier uploading and sharing. http://photos.yahoo.com/ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+