I sincerely hope you can all excuse my pathetic post. I just have been thinking to much today and I can't wait till the night time to say some of these things. I am so mad I live in America because I can't get FYHC until tomorrow....not to mention that I am so low on money till Friday anyway. But I shall find a way. I am wondering today why everyone thinks it is nice to make me feel icky. Not everyone...but most of the people I have spoken to today. While sitting in a cafe reading about the origins of Hinduism...I started to think about the boy I have loved for 5 years......I am finally realizing that we just must not be together...he was very stupid today and he never appreciated the things I do for him and in the past 5 years he has changed so much.....all he thinks about is money. I was also listening to IYFS and how lovely Stuart Murdoch's voice is and it made me realize how I am falling out of love with this boy. How that is possible I do not know. Also...I didn't get to see TOTP and I am so sad for it. Does anyone have a copy that I can buy? So back to my mood.....grrrrr......I think I shall have a boyfriend free summer and wait patiently for my life to get very responsible this autumn when I will be living on my own and going to art school. For the moment....I am going to go to another cafe and waste a few hours. May you all have lovely days and nights. Olivia +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+