{and there it was: you have been given a voice on the sinister list. the truth of it, though, is that i always had one. i've always had this voice. the priviledge is not in the having. it is, rather, in the using. so.} hello. here i am with the uniform of the established scene, tripping through in red shoes that leave damp footprints. sinister's address is easy enough for me to imagine: worldwide. and now i am happy to be here. to be a part. of the world. i always used to think i was just in it, or through it, like an arrow-pierced heart, my head pointed down, my feet in the air and my middle just all wrapped up in everything else. lately i think my head is up, though, and my feet down, back where they should be. if the middle could be all wrapped up in arms, that'd be loverly enough for me. belle and sebastian. should have a pink mailing page of people. with an address that's listed as: worldwide. content: my favorite is the blue one, though i like the green one more. the principle of the thing, i guess, and the second red one is much less better than the first red one. i've sat here on my end in my part of worldwide for three weeks meeting you, and i think there has been talk of change among ranks and files. i wonder what you were like when you talk of what i suppose were your good old days, your days of finding everything fresh and sqeaky new, covered with whatever wonder i hold for you now. isn't it going to make you puke when i say: everything will always be as it should be, even if the shape of things differs in the end from the beginning. and, well: shapes get fucked the fuck up. change always irritates me, particularly its processes; funny, then, that i should be so in love with abstractions, drunk on the process of art, not the finished result. but then this is not art with a capital a. and you are not art with a capital a. you are the a. that doesn't change. only the process does. only the finished product is never complete for the way it will be perceived, and is, and will be tomorrow. and so here, voiced: i am happy. it doesn't really matter if you are not; you will be. i will always be new here, and that is the way and the shape of my voice. "we will it so, and so it is past all accident." *rae __________________________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? Yahoo! Web Hosting - Let the expert host your site http://webhosting.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+