Dear Sinister, This is my first post so bare with me...We went to our flying lessons (I go to a private school, and during Febuary we get to all these really neat things instead of having regular school.), and I was excited and all cause it was only my second lesson. But, it was very windy and every time I tried to pilot the plane i would start to turn in some awkward way, in made my stomach do summersaults. In those little two seater planes, the wind just tosses them around sometimes. The good thing was that I flew next to my friend and we talked over the radio. We flew to an amusment park, and it looked soo great. When we were heading back my friend did a spin to the ground that was just incredible (I was so proud of her!). that was the good part of my day. Later on I made some girls laugh, which I usually can't do. It's weird, I used to try to be all funny to them, but now their sense of humor doesn't seem very mature to me, so making them laugh wasn't very satisfying. Then the girls started talking about what they are going to wear tomorrow when we go to an islamic center. I don't think they have anything else to talk about. I feel sorry for them. I don't think they really care too much about what they're going to wear, they just need something to fill up thier time with. Then my (i don't want to say "my best friend" cause she's not, well not exactly, so i'll just call her "applejuice", cause that's what we call eachother sometimes), so applejuice asks me to come and watch her card trick that one of the pilots taught her. We had a good time talking while she did her card trick. But then I started being funny, i guess, and applejuice thought I was so funny and all, I was just being a little sil! ! ly. Anyways, I'm sitting there with someone who's, like falling off thier chair laughing, and I'm just sitting there, it wasn't all too great. And there's the guy, I haven't really told anyone about him, I wasn't sure if I should tell anyone, cause at school, they'd probably just point at him every time he walked by, just to emberass me...anyways, here's the story (it's not too long)- It was at dance class (he took a two week dance class with me and a couple of other friends). We were practicing this really goofy dance, so everyone was all happy and in a good mood. We started talking and we ended up talking for a really long time. We laughed soo much, I connected with him so much better than I usually do with people. But it only lasted a day, i think it was only because we're from different social groups. And ever since then I've had this fantasticly stupid crush on him. For me, if I am friends with a guy then it's cool, but once I start liking him I act all girly and stupid,! ! and I want to stop acting all giry and stupid, but it's hard. So with most guys i give up on them cause i've acted like such a dork in front of them. but I don't want to give up on this guy, I really really like him. here's what I'll do, i'll set a goal, I usually don't, but I could use something to aim for. I'm going to try to have another great day with him in the next week, no two weeks. gosh, I hope this lasts more than just a day! I hope everyone is doing well. I also wanted to thank all of you who have been writing such beautiful posts, they're great to read at the end of a not-so-beautiful day, cheers, Carly ________________________________________________________________ GET INTERNET ACCESS FROM JUNO! Juno offers FREE or PREMIUM Internet access for less! Join Juno today! For your FREE software, visit: http://dl.www.juno.com/get/web/. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+