well, i'm stuck at work for an extra 4 hours tonight, so i figure i've got more than enough time to create yet another sinister post. hooray for extra time on the clock. your miss amy needs the over time money, so stay here she shall! those expecting birthday cards and mix tapes in the mail will just have to wait another day for me to complete my sinister chores, as i'll be sleeping in late tomorrow. (psst, if yr up until 3am michigan time, email me here as i'll be desperately bored, and without a book to read!) awww, kirsten is back from her trip far, far away! i was happy to see her back at #sinister this morning. but, like i told her, i missed her, but realize it's a happier thing to be in front of people rather than in front of a computer. but, of course! i've finally started creating a wee wittle web page to hold all of those questionaires i got from you just before the holidays. i really had every intention of doing something with them right away, but you know how it goes....and now here's another day that i can't get anything done with them. as far as the scrabble goes, i guess we'll have to see if the boys are still making our own special place for it or not. last i heard, it was in the works. you will be kept posted, of course. holy different time zones to deal with tho, batman! a special thank you to those kind-hearted souls who wrote me after my last post. *squeezes and pinches all of you* what can i melt yr hearts wiff today? hmmm. not too damn much. not in much of a storytelling mood, sadly. i'm in a listening mood though. not very condusive to my situation right now, but oh well. today is the kind of day i listen to billie holiday and swoon over no one. just enjoy. i'm glad i'm not swooning tho. the last true swoon i had with someone face to face, was bad. for, they are married. holy shite, i just realized the last time i posted about someone being wanton with me... they were married too! i just draw the sad and desolate marrieds to me, now don't i? this, i'm afraid, is very bad. i didn't kiss this one tho. really, i didn't. i did let them say some things i prolly shouldn't have let them say, but that's where i made it end. right there. tell me nice things about myself, then move on. go away! i can't have you! shooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!! this one was a particularly sad case tho, 'cuz, well, i'd been harboring a secret crush on him for going on a year. true. i wouldn't even admit it to myself for a long time. i just really care for this person. simple as that. it was nice to hear them say all the caring words to me that you kinda need to hear...but are afraid to. it brought it all to a head. i didn't quite know what to make of the whole situation. so, i woke up the next morning, had a good cry, moped for a couple of days about how unfair life is, and then carried on. what else can ya do? *sigh* i'm just glad about it now 'cuz i'm amazingly free of the burdensome secret crush. it feels good. told you i wasn't in a storytelling mood, that sounded like a bunch of skipping around bullocks. oh well. better post before i try to make 12 revisions. i'm just a poor fool, but what can i do? rachelamyjackslongcore +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+