this is going to be a self-pitying post, so if you're not into that sort of thing, skip on to the next one. I recommend reading it, if only for the reason that it might make you feel better about your own life. I finally did it. I broke down and told my friend jake that I like him in that fun kissing way. we dated for a little while about a year ago, but we decided (well, he did) that we should be friends. I like having him as a friend, but I can't help but feel things for him that I probably shouldn't. unfortunately, he doesn't feel that way about me. apparently he finds me attractive, and he likes me, but not that way. it makes about as much sense as that sort of reasoning ever does, but I do understand it. now I have to decide if I want to continue being his friend. the best part was, he stayed at my place until almost 5:30am. then went over to his room. came back and told me he was locked out. so we stayed up until 7:30, when his roommate was getting up for class, getting pissier with each other as time went on. oh, people suck. I just need someone to hold and to hold me. smoking at my window while listening to galaxie 500 just isn't cutting it. -this has been eric. ____________________________________________________________ Nokia Game is on again. Go to http://uk.yahoo.com/nokiagame/ and join the new all media adventure before November 3rd. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+