hi everyone. i have a feeling i will be very frightened in a minute. i'm listening to a mixed tape from the sinister list and it starts with a pink floyd song that sounds like an eerie heartbeat and some person just started wailing but it suddenly stopped and now there's some creepy music. i wonder if i'm the only person who is terrified by records sometimes. like when there's ten minutes of silence at the end of a record but you forget that it hasn't stopped playing and all of a sudden something loud and scary pops out and you hit the ceiling. well okay, nothing scary happened.. i feel dumb now. thanks a lot, jan imgrund. it's a really nice tape though, i dig it. anyway. it's too bad that struan lost out on rector. although if he hadn't won, alisdair gray really should have. i'm reading ten tales tall and true and people look over my shoulder, like they do, to see what i'm reading because they're shocked to see someone reading by their own free will i guess.. and all the illustrations lead them to think i'm an overgrown kid reading fairy tales. which i am, really, but they aren't supposed to know. i made jen a mixed tape in november or something and it's really grate looking, it has bunny stickers all over it actually. and i found the envelope i addressed to her and a letter inside from january. maybe i'll send it anyway.. i really can't be counted on for anything in general and i'm surprised people put up with me. i'm supposed to begin tutoring a boy in violin tomorrow. i'm worried that i won't have the patience, though. i've never tutored anyone and his mother is so nice over the phone that i hate to ask for money. my friend grace referred them to me and told me that she charges $10 for half an hour. which would be incredible because i'm so very poor. i can never ask anything of people because i feel guilty. i'll have to think about how to bring it up before she calls me tonight.. i'm not a people person, apparently. i don't even know the kid's age or if he's at all cool or anything. that really should be a prerequisite. six months' experience in the realm of indiecoolness or at least an eagerness to learn. will stuart david's new book be published in the us? i'm very much looking forward to it. i've lent nalda said to many friends and they all adore it now. i wanted to lend it to my english teacher, except that i bought him a book (the haiku year) for christmas. i hate that when you do something nice for someone who doesn't expect it, they react really rudely. he gave me a funny look and sort of thanked me but i felt really stupid and immediately wished i could've taken it back. i was just trying to be nice and i thought he'd be really happy and appreciative but instead i thought i was going to cry. bastard. would anyone like to finance a trip to new york so i can visit colleges? when my name's with the best, your name will be on my guest list.. or at least on the side of my cardboard box. love, samantha +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+