rather peeved am i and having to declare it to the world b/c i'm some sort of exhibitionist in this way...lifting my mental skirt and shaking the hips of all things that are brain-wise...someone called it "selfpromotion" which shocked me with its accuracey and flattered me in the sick way i get flattered...but no that's not what i'm peeved about...that's me falling off my track once more...i derail an average of four times a day...someone should have a word with my conductor, but no. hes guzzling whiskey in the caboose and hand sliding up the thigh of karen the servant girl while she coo-coos and and train choo-choos. my footsteps have been heavy, too heavy for heels...toes pinched in patent leather while a four-year boot crushes them...the piggies scream and squeal something awful... * i look into a face that is on the verge of tears at every moments...with a new second, the clock ticks out a complete and new verge...the tears could well. and the could well. and they could well. and they could well...for hours. and i look at the sad face of the clock, like the sad face across from me... * tension ties itself like a knot. we tighten it. there's no way to undo it, though the desire to untie it is mutual...so we sit...and look at the knot, like it were a francis bacon painting hanging and hung in some world-renown gallery which essentially just a space like any other...we sit. we look. we let the knot irritate us. it comes alive and nibbles at our lips, necks and forearms...but we antraced, move not a muscle... * this is vague. a trace. but its said. and now i need you all to chorus an sypathetic "awwwwww.." just to confirm you heard me, whether or not you were listening...my drama in lights...neon pink...and this is like opening night... being ideal and pretty pink neon with no content. -lisa wilting like a flower in yr favorite bedside vase. _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+