but there will always be other copies out there of the records while my heart's not so easily replaced. i don't feel too good right now. radio show at 11:00 am and it's already 2:35 am. i'm falling apart. i thought there was some unwritten rule that you couldn't get your heart broken more than once a year but for some reason i've been cursed with the ability to fall in love with boys who are probably the farthest away from the kind of boys that i should be with. and golly, i certainly don't do it on purpose. i start out being attracted to the right sort of boy for me and then i stray when i hear nice words coming from completely wrong for me boy. and i do find the beauty within wrong for me boy. i guess that's something i'm good at. but then i end up falling completely head over heels in love with wrong for me boy. and something happens to stomp out what had started between us that was getting really warm and cozy marshmellow toasting feeling. and i can't really explain why. because i have strong opinions i suppose. my mouth usually gets me in trouble. i used to wish i was just as dumb as a bunch of people out there who think they are in love when they know nothing about the person they are with. they just end up one day thinking, "shite, i don't know what was the first song that made my husband/wife cry?" or something along the same veins. something that i want to know. maybe i'm too inquisitive. maybe i just think about it too much. in any case i'm in a bit of a mess now, because he's my best friend and i do love him and maybe we started out too fast. and maybe it's because he hasn't had a girl friend before. and maybe it's because i have had too many broken down relationships before they hit 6 months. i've only had one that lasted longer than 6 months and that one lasted a year, 2 months, 7 days. or maybe it's because he doesn't like to dance? okay. i say enough of this sadness. lighter note : i met a lurker off sinister at bis this friday night and it was a treat. it's really nice to know there are other sinisterites in the area. come on. picnic time? please? evol, madflowr np: polak ================================================= if you're in the general dc and feeling sinister? http://sinisterdc.listbot.com ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+