At 01:55 PM 12/5/98 -0500, Marty wrote:
Well, finally someone on the list who can help me not feel so old!!!!! I have been married for 6 years, and we have 1 and 8/9ths kids. My 20-month old likes B&S, but she likes Barney, too. Must be my wife's influence...
well, while i don't know the average age on the list, i'm feeling both old and young at 29 - 30 in january. the 30 thing makes me reflect on similar old thoughts to yours... how i'd be 30 at the turn of the century. for all the responsibility i've accumulated, i don't feel that old in some respects. i still kinda float about, write cryptic lyrics and entwine sound mazes in music, have ramen lunches, and read the dostoevyski, murakami, bulgakovs of the world. i can still do several chin-ups. in that respect nothing's changed since 16. i still wanna change the world. i'm just more rational about how. somehow that seems like the worst thing in the world to me - not that the dream has died, but that the vivid color of yesteryear has paled to the 256 tones that i believe i can paint with today and the few walls that i'll let myself paint upon. i'm not a painter on any day but yesterday in that regard. i have no regrets, but only thing i wish i hadn't lost with age is my naivete'. it's a reverse colorization process and despite my love of black and white, i'm feeling the timber of gray is felling too many trees soundlessly in my forest today. enough personal droning. this feels the equiv of 'crapps last tape' with much less focus. stop. rewind. play. man named Pants <- delta, meaningless without the sea ^ PS: there's a math eq in that worth explaining. metaphors sometimes run true without specifying the object. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list please mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". For list archives and searching, list rules, FAQ, poor jokes etc, see http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +---+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" +---+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+