i can smell it...and i take a long sniff...the smut has died and is rotting on road side like a dead dog...and i play saviour stilletto heel...am being heard again after brief period of bound and gag hush... coffee in this house is cold as a cube...other side of the window is a bed not so warm as the one inside...so i try to stay out of the one outside...and stay in, completely in to the point where i am not only inside of the walls, or inside of room which are inside the walls, or inside of bed which is inside the room that is inside these walls, but inside my body...further inside than the bed or room or walls...it is box within box within box within box and i dwell in the most inner sancutary...the holy place where not even priests can enter...this is the ritual of every winter... honey says things about illustrations and broadways lights and fame... and i quote/unquote "crave attention" as ex of mine has the nerve to declare to me from across bitter coffee stained booth last night in a rather unexpected run-in...in light of this quote/unquote comment and spite enough to bite off my own nose i post and want to be depicted and be famous with DOM.LISA in lights enough to blind all of you... role reversal...lisa's not the one going blind this time (note: content)..nono and i shake my head in matter-of-fact way and toss black curls across my face to confirm this nonononono-ing. quick...someone gag me again and yesyes i nod: this is an invitation! and throw black curls into my eyes again i nod so furiously... but b/f you do so, remember to leave santa polaroids of bedroom rompings instead of milk and cookies this year...the old man is in need of a little spice and i don't mean nutmeg... -lisa (self appointed list dom.) goes good with pa peanutbutter puffs and a pitcher of vodka tonic... _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+