i'll tell you what i saw...i saw about the 20th hour of my playlist ticking away. it's 2:56 am. i can't sleep. i don't know what my problem is lately. i just can't fall asleep. i mean i get tired, i lay down, but my eyes they just won't shut. i stay up thinking of countless things that end up being a lost cause anyway because when i wake up in the morning i can't remember any of it and even if i did it probably would make any sense and even if it did i wouldn't appriciate the late night state of meditation i was in the previous night. so here i sit with my winamp churning out hour upon hour of melodys that took months to create and months to produce and approximately 3:45 minutes for me to listen to. kind of makes people appriciate music more when a person would think about it like that i mean artists pour months of their lives into an album and then people sit and listen to it or read a book for an hour and say "hey that was some hip fuckin shit right there." but that's it. i want to go up to an artist and say "thanks for your life and kicking some serious ass." that would be pretty dope if you ask me. jack kerouac comes to mind. i'd just like to walk up and be like, you kicked my ass and fucked with my head...i appriciate it. i wish i had more time to read this list more often. i am so busy with school and buying books and eating and downloading and waiting in lines to buy books for classes and then waiting for books to come to the book store that you need to do an assignment and don't come in until the day before because up to that point things had just been going to well, i mean come on. my girlfriend moved into my dorm building my classes are beyond fantastic. only negatives are neck pain and trying to quit smoking. A-HA! the double edge sword of my life. the smoking issue. to smoke or not to smoke. if given the opportunity i would continue with this habit. however, my girl isn't fond of it. say that "things would not be able to get serious after school had come to a close if i continued." so it looks like this question was answered before it was asked. i guess she's lucky that i'm so fond of her. if not..smoking would be a bigger part of my life. however, it is un-necessarily expensive. which i do not appriciate. however..i have been sneaking a few here and there. but, shh, don't tell. i won't if you won't. the clock seems to beat along with mayfly. it just keeps say "no no no..you don't need to go to sleep fool. stay awake, listen to music, go and buy more cigarettes ::evil laugh::" grrr. nicotine. you are an unfaithful lover. it's just another one of the many bad habits that will one day lead a person to expire. inner conflict. it's like a movie. only in the movies, no one that smokes ever looks sick or dying. i just think james dean, dean martin, the evil doers in james bond, jim morrison. mr. mojo rising. c'mon. okay. so jim morrison's lungs colapsed. but his heroine was at fault there...not his cigarettes. you made me forget my dreams. i typed that to my girlfriend that once because i'm a sappy loser. she told me not too, just to include her in them now. it made me smile. it's now 3:16 am. i need to be awake in 7 hours. the weekends make me so incredebly unmotivated. it's unbelievable. i think my typing is keeping my roomate awake. i feel bad. grr. ishouldgo -jeff ===== to the extreme i rock the mic like a vandal light up a stage and watch me jump like a candle __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Great stuff seeking new owners in Yahoo! Auctions! http://auctions.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+