And again I rise from lurking pits, has anyone missed me? most probably not. I spend a lot of time at school lurking as well, wandering around with not enough time to do anything really, so I just wander to make myself look busy. From the computer lab to the bathroom to the cafeteria to the deans office, sometimes just wandering around in circles, humming music to myself or, before my headphones broke, listening to music. I should get new headphones. Sometimes I really appreciate being alone, it is, most often, by choice..there are people I could sit with and talk to and pretend to be interested in, but I don't want to. On good days I have long enough chunks of time that I can go and paint. Alone too, but happy. Today, though, I am truely lonely. But still, I don't want to talk to anyone, I do not want to speak. Don't you ever feel like you are sad, and theres nothing that we can do about it, so you might as well find content in your sadness? Its definately one of those days. I'm not going to be happy, but thats okay. I think I'll go see if ! there are any more brownies in the cafeteria. Another question to pose: what exactly is "list abuse"? Yes, I know the technical definiton, but why must we all make up something about belle and sebastian for every post, when everyone knows that it is not really the belle and sebastian related content that makes the list so worthwhile. List abuse is writing someone a personal message, trying to find a roomate or a ride to such and such town or other place..but not necisarily talking about things that don't relate to belle and sebastian, don't you agree? love, Rachel Grapenut +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+