salutations, well, and what about the 'peacock thingy'? it seems to me Mr David is merely indulging himself in the little sport of reinvention. and what's wrong with the occasional reinventing of one's self? sure, certain people might find it queer, but if he were to remain the same, and put out the same pile day in and day out as if to please his brother or sister, he might just get bored. i encourage everyone to refrain from neglecting themselves. vent if you gotta ... curse if you wanna ... *disclaimer: er, this isn't really my opinion; it's more of an insomniacal vantage from my current state of mind. that is, i might think differently tomorrow. what about yourself? as i've implied, i haven't slept for quite some time now. i'm not sure how long it's been, nor do i really care, and i doubt that you really care either, but at this moment the fluid between my skull and my brain seems to be exuding with a magnetic tickling sensation. although i like it way much, i wonder to myself, 'hmm ... my brain bleeding?' i can stare at the wallpaper and watch the flowers lean side to side; and with the slightest bit of concentration they begin to meander in an upward climb of the vine they're drawn against. i suspect that it's got a lot to do with the old LSD excursions, well, i know it does. i no longer do drugs, but apparently they still do me. *JenOwl wrote: "But this is how I figured I'm damned ........ I went through the crowd, and they all started jeering and spitting at me, and throwing stones and chips and things at me, until I was well clear. And the Jesus man just laughed and watched, then started talking again. He didn't say anything like, 'Jesus wouldn't be too pleased if you threw things and spat on someone.' He just laughed and went right on talking about the apostles and how bluddy grate they were all supposed to be." i wonder what she was wearing. nevermind that. this passage from the book of JenOwl reminds me of old times. when i used to walk the halls of high school between rows of hissing self-proclaimed christians, i saw clearly. when i used to rise up from the ground after getting beaten to a bloody pulp, i heard God. when the major cliques of the schoolyard drug my name through the mud, i emerged clean. i doubt Jesus is neither pleased nor displeased with such people. i doubt he even knows of them. anywayz, i'm looking forward to chatting with some of you soon ... once i gather the nerve to log on. i'll probably have a s/n with color in it. ex: pink_lip, purple_punch, dead_red, white_dyke, orange_porn, green_gulliver, violet_fuck-up ... you get the idea. later peepz. (shoots self with finger) jeremy __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Yahoo! Auctions - Buy the things you want at great prices. http://auctions.yahoo.com/ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+