Dear All this may be the hardest post that i have ever ever written. I am leaving you. i bear no grudge or ill will against most if not all of you , that is to say i won't do an isabelark or what ever . I just feel it is time for me to move on. Sinister has been a pretty big part of my life for the last 4 years but i think i should go off for a while. The list has grown rather stagnant of late with the posts not being as stimulating and simulating as they used to be, perhaps it is my own doing that i have allowed myself to lose interest in the list but i find it rather hard to get excited about bowling meets in england that i can never go to , clubs nights i crave to but can't go to simply cos i live on the wrong island. sinister has raised my expectations of people but it has also made me feel very isolated. i think i have to get real, now. never before or never again shall i come across 1400 interesting people that all have a different perspective than i but also one that agrees mostly with me , well it used to be the case anyway. I realised that it isn't real. no matter what is said i still have to go on my day to day life with people that aren't like me in manner that perhaps isn't me but unfortunatly that is real life and i can't bloack myself away from it no matter how hard i try - perhaps i am not making myself clear as i would want to. Basically i want to move on with my life-. also i suppose i have never really felt the urge to meet up with anyone whatsoever and no need to open my heart on here i sort of feel like an outsider anyway. i leave you with the words of a 13th century song "guadeamus igitur , iuvenes dum sumus" indeed let us be happy while the we are young godspeed jonathan +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+