sinister shit im losing it. from the first moment of waking up and when the first cup of coffee tasted like washing up ok i prob got that all wrong but i am im so scared first, for the first time ever i lost it and really screamed at someone-in class. for a very petty reason. i was tld to go for a walk till id calmed down. i didnt go back till the end. even tho id calmed down- i couldnt face them. and then today :*( i dont get on with one of my sisters, at all shes a year and half younger and is very mean to me she always calls me a freak and is generally very horrible and today i lost it with her but i didnt just scream at her i took evry reasonable appraoch i could think of but it didnt work i went for her i grabbed her hair and dragged her onto the floor (bearing in mind shes about 2" taller and alot bigger and stronger) i stood over her back and held her down she was screaming and screaming she got me off and i got her into like a headlock then i left and she was crying and upset she phoned my dad and he came and took her away and i was shaking and crying and scared i feel so stressed and so scared help me i am so scared what have i done lost, sweetie x +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@missprint.org". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@missprint.org". WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+