isnt the word 'indiepop' an oxymoron? just a thought. messy hair would defiantly have to be included in the list, along with stories of adolescent hardships, and cellos in the music. im sure i could think of many others, but i dont want to hog. i was intending on writing yesterday, it was sunday, so i was in a terrible mood, but i was occupying my time making a mix tape for my friend who is going to europe, she needed music to keep her head on the plane. although she detests belle and sebastain, i still made a killer tape. since today is monday, and i had a time fighting with my cunt of a boss just a little while ago, i am feeling better. i love arguing, im GRATE at it. but yesterday and this morning i felt like shit. i think i may be falling in love with the girl im dating, but there is still a part of me that doesnt want to, so im in a bit of a turmoil. sighhh. she isnt the girl i love now and will always love, but she is still a very wonderful person. she challenges me, and makes fun of me. i love that. people are afraid to challenge me and poke fun, even in good nature. i think its because i am attractive and smart (im quite conceded too), but its like people look at me differently, and are afraid i wont like them if they dont treat me like a higher person. perhaps im wrong, and im totally obsessing over this, but im afraid im right. being who i am is a major pain sometimes. last night my friends keep bringing up the topic of what i want to do for the rest of my life. and thats like the thing that gets to me the most. im 21, and going for a business degree, hate business, and have no idea what i want to do. i know many others are in the same boat, but it just really gets to me. so the whole time during dinner (after seeing'american beauty' no less) i had to explain what i think about doing and what i dont want to do. at this point i just want to be like 'kane in kung fu, you know, walk to earth' (yes i stole that, but from where....?) well..... my piss mood has returned, time to go pick a fight have a fulfilling day, jason the confused +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+