oh sinister, my cat is throwing up yellow bile all over my (already) stained carpet as I write this, giving me a weird sort of inspiration. I've been caught in such a slump this summer, not that it hasn't been great fun, it's just been so... disillusioning??? I guess apathy would be the most appropriate word to describe it, though i don't want to cheapen the feeling or make it cliche by applying such a tweeish and oh-so-early-twenties word to it. sometimes everything just looks so bleak and hopeless, and god, society is such a hole. I agree terribly much with Mr.James Danson-Hatcher, and his thoughts on the current state of our culture. it's especially easy to see where I live, all of the independently run establishments have been driven out by big faceless box-stores, and the awful suburban sprawl just keeps growing and growing... but i refuse to fall prey to nostalgia, so looking back is forsure not the answer. (what is though?) on the opposite end of these darkday feelings, i sometimes get so caught up in the whole random beauty of it all that i feel like imploding (??). just like misc. bus rides or skies that don't ever end or smoking a joint on a sunny Saturday morning with your best-friend and playing piss-ants for a day. and things like:
and that autumn won't stay away forever.
i miss sweater weather. i miss wearing long woolly scarves with occasional yellow leaf stacked on it. i miss feeling rain on my face and hands. i miss the sounds that wind makes when it's angry. i miss cats meowing to me on dark alleys. i miss meowing them back. i miss chestnuts dropping. i miss piles of colourful leaves and me in them. i even miss struggles with umbrellas outside in the cold rain. i miss those who i love. a constant ache it is. i'm afraid that i start to forget all these small things i like about my friends if i don't see them that often. but it's not so bad because i still want to remember all those things. i want to keep in contact and tell them things about everyday life. i want to make them happy. and i know they feel the same way about me and that is a most important thing in friendship. that and trust.
(etc.etc.etc.) yes sinister chumps, this wee list does remind one of the more appealing aspects of life, and for that I'm a pap-happy boy. so yes, these past couple weeks have been great, and it feels like I've been crawling out of a dirty ditch I've been in for quite long enough, (though in ways I was glad to be there) hope everybody is at least feeling. enjoy the end of summer!! , rob p.s. good news, Calvin Johnson is playing a show at my house!! how ridiculous!!!!!! so anyone in the Hamilton area e-mail me and come down. _________________________________________________________________ MSN Photos is the easiest way to share and print your photos: http://photos.msn.com/support/worldwide.aspx +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+