halloo sinisterians .. though i've been on the list for a while, i've not yet posted .. this is due largely to the fact that i'm a lurker by nature .. a voyeur, not a creator (this is why i'm a literature major and not creative writing). i cast my crush vote on an unsuspecting individual with whom i've been corresponding on a periodic basis and i hope they don't find out because i'll become flustered. this happens to me frequently as all my crushes always manage to find out about my secret interest in them .. it's a weird feeling, like how you feel when you're in the middle of a big clearing, naked, and your clothes are on the other side of the clearing and you know that everyone is watching you. you don't know whether to go get your clothes, or just stand there and act normal .. not that i've ever been in THAT situation before .. the other day i had a job interview early in the morning a few miles away, so i dressed nice and pretty and took the autobus to my interview .. however, i caught an earlier bus than i was planning and was 1hr 45mins early .. so i bought a banana and a cup of vanilla coffee from seven-eleven and went to the local park. it was soft and dewy and i was content to enjoy my banana and converse with two homeless fellows whilst lasted the duration of my wait. they shared with me many exciting things, as in how to obtain sexual favors from prostitutes in downtown los angeles and how to get free health benefits by posing as a mentally insane veteran. though i have no personal use for these nuggets of wisdom, it was quite nice to get a glimpse at the lives of others. i find myself strangely out of place on this list - in station, but not in spirit. i am resigned to listen to mainstream pop and rock that many might find vulgar and plain, and i am largely unaware of the musical trends that frequent the thoughts and posts of the traditional listee .. however, this is my post in life and i am happy to fill it. i do, however, revel in receiving cotton candy letters from cute twees who relish the construction of sentences and watching people on the autobus the same way i do. the ex-inhabitants of our apartment still receive an overwhelming amount of mail .. we forward their bills and correspondence but keep their magazines, which are unfortunately not that interesting if you don't gravitate toward the skanky and obscene. victoria's secret, glamour, vogue, vanity fair, cosmopolitan .. i keep the j. crew catalogues because i like their clothes, though i am too poor to buy them. i want to order a pair of mittens from them, however. we'll see .. on that note, i thought it would be fruitful to find out if there are any listees that live in the los angeles area. i ran into a nice boy at my university who was wearing the "study at stow" shirt, and i said "hi" and tried to talk with him, but he was rather glum and unenthusiastic so i let him be. i think it would be quite pleasant to orchestrate a friendly christmas party among us though i am too fearful to post that on the message board. anyone? and .. lastly .. i am in great need of the beat patrol and black sessions recordings, as they popped up without me knowing (and, being across the ocean, i was unable to be so affluent as to record them on my own). so i ask people who may have had this chance .. i can trade top-quality recordings of tigermilk, the 3 demos, the 2 radcliffe sessions, the 2 evening sessions, blank tapes, good friendship or a really good backrub. farewell and good night mark +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list please mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". For list archives and searching, list rules, FAQ, poor jokes etc, see http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +---+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" +---+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+