i keep having bad dreams about the world dying and my family dying and so on.... they always end with me sobbing and hugging my dead or dying brother or sister.....it's all so horrible. this world is so completely out of control. honestly everyone should just go out and get stoned. something relaxing......maybe valium...or exstacy even......i don't know, could we put it in the water supply?.......i think i'm developing an ulcer. i work in a mailroom at an accounting firm, and all we've talking about is how to handle dangerous or suspicious materials......this morning we got a letter from lagos (in africa) marked "suspect material" i didn't know what to make of it....it was completely flat and felt empty......but i said (to quote my native ancestors) "today is a good day to die" and i snipped it open....and all it was was a money-making scam thing from nigeria. but it made me think very seriously for a moment about my imminent death......and now i'm really freaked out and shaking and i feel like i'm going to throw up. very panicky. i'm filled with a very unsafe feeling. and i know that people all around the world have felt this and are feeling this....all those poor people in afghanistan......nobody should feel this......nobody should die......god, i'm crying now.....i can't write anymore now, sorry.......i love you all out there, please be friendly to someone today.....help someone somehow..............caleb ben ===== And when I'm lying in my bed I think about life and I think about death and neither one particularly appeals to me and if the day came when I felt a natural emotion I'd get such a shock I'd probably lie in the middle of the street and die I'd lie down and die ------morrissey __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Make a great connection at Yahoo! Personals. http://personals.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+