I was thinking these thoughts recently and realised that the sinister List was the place to air them and get feedback from LikeMindedSouls. I've been suffering from extreme coincidence syndrome lately. Things keep going my way and positive experiences seem to be queueing up to force themselves upon me. This is a good thing, but it kinda fills me with dread, like maybe I'm about to die or something. This started me thinking about Heaven and the afterlife and stuff. So I tried to picture heaven, and all I could see were the people I love who have gone before. My aunt Margaret, who died of leukemia 2 years ago. An amazing woman, a beacon of sensitivity and intellect. My uncle Tommy and my auntie Pat, good, solid people struck down before their time. My little cousin Ally, who died aged 17 way back in '91. I can still see his smirk and hear his voice. My Grandpa John. He sang 'Ragtime Cowboy Joe' at family parties. My Granny Nessie, daft as brush but great with it. My Granny May and Grandpa Wullie, smiling at the chaos their grandchildren brought to their home. My aunt Rosemary, taken by cancer before she turned 30 back in 1984. I see all these people waiting for me, and they are smiling and happy. They wait for me and they want to talk to me, to tell me how the rest of their lives have unfolded and to fill in the gaps of stuff I don't know. I don't see this as any kind of paradise or utopia, merely the natural conclusion of existence, to be as one with those who brought me into the world. ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+