hi, this isn't a good night. i'm just, well, sad. the causes of my sorrows are long and boring, but the most recent one occurring last week when i turned 21. i feel so old. i was more depressed than happy on my birthday. i sometimes think my parents should have explained to me, when i was younger, that things grow old, things die, and things go away. one of my best friends from long ago died in a car crash last month, and my brother in law died too. i just wish someone would have told me that there are things that are so sad and so painful. i guess it's because my parents don't have any answers. they're dealing with it too. hm. i'm a senior now (at wake forest university...i'm still waiting for another wake person to be on this list..sigh) and i look at the freshmen and think how incredibly puerile they all look. it's laughable. i find myself saying things like "when i was your age" and "back when i was __, i did __". now i know what many of you may be thinking..."i'm 27. don't tell me about being old". i've always thought i was somewhat accelerated in this emotional development department. as in, i think i'm going through coupland's mid-20s crisis now. yep, a little early. other than that, i think i'm in love with audrey hepburn. this is a good crush for me because i don't think audrey will ever turn me down. of course, she's just a photo or a frame, so that's not much to comfort. and with that, i must retire. love blake the nerdy shy eyed pacifist http://members.tripod.com/nucleartrout aol IM: fatelwood (if anyone wants to discuss audrey hepburn movies...i'm such a sucker) +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+