winter took a break today. instead it just rained a lot and there was a lot of strong wind. and that thing happened too, when you're walking by a puddle and a big truck comes and splashes you. it's not good, i wish all puddles were warm and not cold. that way i wouldn't shout the word "fuck" so loudly. i think i scared some old people, oh well. i only had one lesson today but that was spent drying off. i sat next to the radiator and just looked out of the window all lesson. there's this really ugly building in my town and they've made it even uglier. for christmas they've put this huge picture of a child with a toothless smile on the side of it. i just kept thinking about how much stick that poor kid's going to get at school. they should have spared him, any stranger who comes to this town (why they would want to i have no idea) is just going to head straight back home...which would be the sensible thing. i had a job interview today, i've never actually had a proper job interview before so i didn't really know what to do. the guy who interviewed me was a bit strange. "pete" kept coughing, maybe he was nervous. i wasn't nervous i just didn't know what to do, i don't think i got the job either. every single question he asked was greeted by an initial 'err...well...'. i think i also used the word "umm" 445345 times. i felt really bad afterwards, so i bought cigarettes. i don't smoke, but one of my friends swears that a cigarette can make you feel better. i didn't, instead it just reminded me why i don't like smoking. strange to think how peeople can be addicted to them. after the first one i just gave up and exchanged them with a homeless person for a copy of the big issue. i listened to 'get me away from here...' then. i really do like that song, perhaps it's my favourite b&s song. somebody mentioned the song 'rhoda' in a post the other day, which made me search through my mp3s trying to find it. i really do like that song. i haven't got a good copy of it so instead of have to cope with the speakers vibrating everytime it gets a bit louder. stuart still sounds good, even if he is muffled and the hissing sound is louder than he is. i don't know why but i find myself listening to b&s more around this time of the year. actually, if i could ask a member a question it'd be to any of them...i'd ask if they would release 'rhoda'. my mum's been going to the hospital a lot lately. i don't know why, and whenever i mention it she changes the subject. i think she went again today, she looked really tired when she came home and she had all these plasters on the back of her hands. i know they're supposed to be good for you but there's nothing i hate more in the world than hospitals. maybe because i've spent too much time in them. i wish there would be some way they could be...dirtier. it sends me insane the way everything shines. when you spill something a team of nurses come and clean it up. i appreciate nurses, and doctors. i hope my mum's ok. i'm sure she will be. perhaps i'm just being ultra paranoid and she's got an in growing toe nail. as horrible as it sounds. i remember a boy at my old school who had one of those who took great pleasure in showing everyone in the p.e. changing rooms. he liked it so much he never told his parents because he didn't want them to take him to a hospital. one day during a p.e. lesson someone hurt his foot and he ended up going to hospital. i don't think there's a point to that story, it's just a story. i used up the last page in my sketchbook the other day, it was fun flicking through it and looking at all the other stuff, stuff i'd forgotten about. i think everyone should have something like that just to piss about with. i don't like other people looking at it though, it's personal in anyway, it's just i don't like people looking at it. i was looking at somebody's sketchbook in my english lesson, for her art class. it was strange because they have to use them almost formally. you could tell the person had put a lot of effort into it and yet the tutor wrote (in red ink none the less) "not good enough". there's nothing worse than teacher's comments in red ink, it just marrs everything. what the hell am i going on about? --- i saw in a rachael fruitloop post "Nafees seems like such a tough guy! Even though it was an accident!" that's partly true. it was an accident but i am far from being a tough guy. i run as far away from confrontation as possible. you know the line in that hefner song that goes "usually i like confrontation i do" ? well, that's not me. however i understand what people mean when they said they feel good when they're mentioned in one of those. i was reading my e-mail in the media study area at college and i began to laugh. when i asked why i replied "oh i was in a fruitloop post", the person looked suitably bemused. i don't why it's good, perhaps it's because everybody likes acknowledgment. my two cents (or pence) worth about the magnetic fields: i like them, they're good. not amazing but nice none the less. i can understand why people don't like them solely of the merits of merritt (boom boom), but i've never seen them/him live so i wouldn't know. i do like the white stripes, they make me tap my foot and walk a little bit faster. i was reading a will oldham interview and he was saying that perhaps people would enjoy stuff more if they were more focused on the product and not the person or people. i think i agree, perhaps that's why i haven't not, not enjoyed any music recently. actually no. that robbie williams thing the other day, i had to turn over. i have only fond memories of the royal albert hall and i intend to keep them that way. worst pick-up line? well, i don't know if it's a line but once me and my friend were at a bar, standing at the bar. and some guy goes to my friend "you're lucky", to which my friend replies "why?", man goes "because i'm here", my friend goes "oh...ok" then turns round. it was just funny the way my friend ignored his feeble attempts. i would of felt sorry for him if i didn't see him trying it on other people. --- this post's been rather crap, for which i apologise. i feel i should end with a crap joke, patient: "doctor, it hurts whenever i touch my body" doctor: "that's because you've broken all your fingers" take care, nafees. p.s. the new jim o'rourke album is rather good. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. 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