oh no, i caught an autumn low..! hello dear sinisters, i love cinnamon. i love everything cinnamon. that's why i always enjoyed reading the narrow wizard's posts... "with that the narrow wizard waggled his bushy eyebrows and disappeared in a flash of blue flame leaving behind only a faint smell of cinnamon" -- how lovely!! :) alas, today even drinking cinnamon tea didn't alleviate my strangestrange mood. worth to note i drank it while listening to 'sally cinnamon' by the roses! still nothing... autumn makes me so melancholy sometimes... looking out of the window i see the trees, their leaves a mixture of yellow and orange; grey buildings under grey clouds... and instead of singing 'orange crush' by r.e.m. i just want the sun to come out. for the past couple of days i've been wandering round the house after school, in that not-having-the-will-to-do-anything mood... ooh, i've just written 'will' there - well, apologies to all Wills and Will-Wannabes, but i'm in the Rachel Rovers team, teehee. :) my name's ola. rachola. and i'm the goalie ;) school's been fine so far.. at least a change after having to stay at home for 3 horror weeks of silly illness. i still get tired really easily, though, which is mighty annoying. whatever you do darlings, avoid going down with mononucleosis. ;) i've started reading 'lord jim' by joseph conrad.. he was polish, you know? :) he changed his name, which was a good decision i guess - i doubt if he'd have been published a lot, had he signed his works 'korzeniowski' rather than 'conrad' ;) perhaps i should change my surname too, then i could become the female... err, edward lear? :) i'm quite good at writing nonsense rhymes, i can easily see myself as the Queen of Limericks. and why not? ;) i've had a huge row with mum today. we just can't seem to get along ok, for more than 2 weeks anyway. she's made a few allusions that perhaps it would be better if i lived with my dad. i'm not sure if she really meant it. that's stability in my life... i watched 2 documentaries last night. one was about afghanistan and the taliban ruling, the other about freedom fights in east timor... some of the scenes were *so* cruel and shocking.. i couldn't take it all in... i know it's a cliche, but all the wars and conflicts and people's cruelty make me worry about where the world is heading. 'come armageddon', as morrissey sang. or something ;) in the 18th century in france there lived a utopianist named charles fourier. among other things, he claimed that if people helped each other and co-operated for each-other's benefit, the world would change as well. for example, a lion would become an anti-lion, and there would be lemonade in the seas. i find it sweet :) yes, i am a fan of utopianism. ;) i set out to change the world by blowing bubbls in the streets. mind you, it makes some people actually smile(!) :) just one last thing and my random rambling is over. i need a boyfriend. but not some seduce-disappear guy, not again. and preferably the tall, skinny type or a lookalike of jónsi from sigur rós. or ken chu ;) (i could be one of your dream-girls, ken. i've got green eyes ;) ...the seduce-disappear guy said i had fantastic eyes. he also said some other things. and i fell for his damn smoothtalk. stupisstupidstupid. but that was 2 months ago. time to move on and plot a revenge. erm, sorry. i should be back to my cheerful not-mentioning-boring-personal-stuff self soon(ish). otherwise you'll all hate me. love, rachola (lalala) ps. *hugs* to rachel oj and other sini darlings in love-distress. i hope everything turns out fine for you. psps. also *hugs* to all other sinister darlings, i wouldn't want you to feel left out :) -- Zamów odbitki ze zdjęć cyfrowych lub archiwum zdjęć na CD! [ http://lab.foto.onet.pl/laboratorium.html ] +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+