Okay so I got chewed out for my barrage of e-mail that i sent out in my zeal of being back on the list for the first time in 6 months. So now that my knuckles have been rapped, here we go. first, the really clever bit about Pennington...

Date: Fri, 29 Jan 1999 05:12:29 PST From: "Julian Bester" <julianbester@hotmail.com> Subject: Sinister: Mick McMick

Does everybody else call Mick McMick "Prick McMick" when they're slagging him off behind his back?

I have never called him this. However, I have filed it away for future reference. Now on to Belle and Sebastians shows and me being bitter.

Hey, any of you Ann Arbor people know if B&S are playing here anytime soon? I suppose I could check the paper but then my posting would be very brief and wouldn't have any B & S content at all.

This would be a show in Detroit which would have been nice for me since I live an hour away. Boy that show would have been great. Too bad like Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny, it doesn't exist. Now on to love.

I want to go off topic now. You know when you go out with someone and you're not sure of them and then you fall in love with them, but you aren't sure why because you think you could do better even though you don't know what would be better, but you know it's not this? Well that happened to me. And yesterday he dumped me because he didn't think I really loved him, because I said I didn't before, and now that I do (I think) he doesn't believe me. And I know he's not "the one" but it still hurts?

Well I feel horrid now and I don't know if it's because he doesn't love me any more or because I fell in love with the wrong guy, or whether it's always like this when you get dumped because I've only ever been hurt once and that was by the guy I REALLY thought was "the one". Does anyone have any insights? Because I don't and all my friend are (to quote a Bridget Jones-ism) smug marrieds, and think it's my fault for being too picky or too honest or whatever. And you lot are all sensitive sorts and I would value your opinion.

I have had this feeling before and the best thing was that I was still hurting from a relationship like this one you describe and it made me throw away THE ONE. How's that for having shitty timing? Now I am alone and spend my days in coffee shops becoming a poster boy for colon cancer and not even knowing it. Well I guess I do know it, but I won't admit that I know it. I wanted to kiss one of my best friends last night because we were talking about kissing. That could have been an awkward moment. My dog is still dead. Brandt +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list please mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". For list archives and searching, list rules, FAQ, poor jokes etc, see http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +---+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" +---+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+