Actually its funny (not ha ha) that this list is talking about death lately, because it has been recurring in my life lately , more than on the usual scale. The dead cat, for one. The second instance of death is actually a close family friend (pseudo-family) thats dying in hospital and has only a week or so to live. I went to see her in hospital today, and (sorry for the morbidity of my recent posts) well, it was very sad. She made someone sit by her for four or so hours the other night because she is afraid that when she goes to sleep she'll die. She likes to have a person there when she goes to sleep so she feels safe. She has made friends with an orderly in the hospital and its actually quite good because the orderly sits there and talks about death and that with her. Which is something that none of her friends and family can do, because we all have too much baggage from before and it is upsetting for us, as well as her. Whereas, Trish the orderly, only knew her in hospital for the last couple of weeks and so she can talk much more lucidly with her, without breaking down. I think the worst part about her death would not be the actual dying bit but the loss of all her faculties, for her, as well as us. It clearly upsets her that she cannot walk and that she has real trouble remembering. The amount of drugs she has is so much that she cannot sustain a conversation for more than five minutes before she tunes out and stares into space. She is not that old, about 40. And one of the nicest people I have ever met..... Thankyou listees for listening, even as/if no one will read it, it is easier to write than talk often. Hey, I must seem like some sort of death-obsessed tragedy magnet.That me and bad things stick like velcro on woolen garments. Ooops. Its a good thing that no one will probably get the chance to meet me as I would probably not live up to your usual tragedy magnet expectations. I don't hang around cemetaries or even wear copious amounts of black, although now, come to think of it, I do like to scream "we are all going to dieeeeee" very loudly from my box on the corner every now and then..... Well, think about it, I listen to B&S, not really morbid stuff, although I am waiting to be contradicted by a listee who thinks that TBWTAS is the most upsetting/morbid album they've ever listened to and if you "listen to the lyrics, man" then you will realise that its pretty remarkable that all of us as listees have resisted the temptation to just finish ourselves off once and for all. Anyway, thanks to alisdair for inciting my sick sense of humour and making me smile, by making me picture my friends and I, beside the road with a stapler and a dead cat saying "Well, its always worked before....." and then another mental image of a cat with a note superglued to its hand saying "sorry, but actually I'm dead". Oh but it really was sad too... Helen.. who is just having a bad week, it'll pass in time. ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+