my hair isn't long enough to pull back in a ponytail yet, so my red bandana will do. it's warmer today but it's just chilly enough for me to wrap my body up in knit everything knit knot knit the room was getting too stuffy for me to bleed outside my body so i unfolded my ground- level lawn chair out on the balcony and sat there watching cars and vans and trucks loudly stop and go at the intersection i live at. the swirl of aiplanes in the air kept the sky gray and forgetful. yearning for alcohol, i'll just suffice with coffee chalked full of caffiene feed me yes! yes! get the high!! yes! oh god the buzz fuckin a get me a fuckin life worth breathin about... i let tori amos's "boys for pele" drag through my eardrums. i couldn't stand it anymore, i'm sittin here in knitted knots and a dress and some skin tight tourquoise pants just waiting for someone to sprinkle fairy dust on me to take me to Never Never Land cuz i'm sure as i could ever be i've got happy thoughts to get me there, happy thoughts to steal the last train to clocksville by god. what? what am i talking about? i wish you'd tell me, or diagnose me, or actually please don't do that, i don't have the moula to get you paid for all that extensive research and yellow days spent sitting in a library soaking up the florescent rays from the light reflecting off the book that said it'd take you somewhere pretty. i wish i could sit down with allen ginsberg and kiss his hand. i'd feed him some crispy rubber pancakes and let him write for me, i'd help support whatever habit he would sport, and then i'd run away and leave him in my apartment cuz i think i could be a bitch like that right now. the sweetest bitch in the world. today has to end sometime. does midnight sound good? ---your mountain mama sweetheart X ***Sometimes you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right*** ---Jerry. http://www.care2.com - Get your Free e-mail account that helps save Wildlife! +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+