hello, i felt so stupid after writing that mail on thrusday, cos it was just a photo, he wasn't even with any girl in it. i've just been obsessing about him lately and about boys in general. i thought i was over it, but every night i try to to think about something nice so i've been thinking about being with someone and whether i could be with anyone, whether i'd still have feelings for him. and if someone would say that he loves me or something and whether i could say the same thing to him, and i realised that i can't. so i thought i really have to stop obsessing about finding someone and obsessing about him, cos that takes just so much energy. and my grades are hurting, cos it's difficult to concentrate on school work. but i'm just tired of it though, and i regret that i missed that one exam because of him. i'm generally able to control my emotions, but it's just when i'm alone i tend to freak out about things and make then bigger than what they probably are, in reality. something else now: does anyone here attend strathclyde university? i might be coming there in january, i've been offered a place to study there for the 2nd semester, but i'm not sure whether i should go, and i don't know whether i get a place at the halls of residence. but yesterday i read from nme that the delgados are playing there on january the 28th and i could see them, and i'd like to see them. but the thing that worries me are the courses, especially those tutorials that you have. i was planning to take some courses in history and literature and maybe in politics. so i'd be studying at faculty of arts and science, what are the teachers like there? i'd like to go to necropolis and visit nick drake's grave and sylvia plath's too, and maybe go to isle of skye. i better go now, thanks for listening and caring. me x __________________________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? Yahoo! Mail Plus - Powerful. Affordable. Sign up now. http://mailplus.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+