I love songs, I love movies, and maybe I've loved the idea of someone, but never

i am working at home this week writing letters to 'artistes' and provincial writers groups. my eyes are a bit sore from looking at this screen now. and i don't think my professionalism was enhanced by listening to the moldy peaches all day. but i'm still prepared to risk migraines writing to sinister... confession: on tuesday afternoon i ate a whole bag of nacho chips in front of pretty in pink instead of looking for a proper job. there is NOTHING better than watching john hughes films in the afternoon. apart from perhaps the princess bride on dvd, at any time of day. more diversion tactics: while thinking about what sort of thing to put on a minidisc for our friends in japan, i thought (again) about what would be on a 'best of' b&s compilation. may i burn in hell for starting this, honey, but if you could have just one track from each single/ep and two from each album, what would your final list look like? mine goes: expectations my wandering days are over get me away from here i'm dying mayfly dog on wheels photo jenny le pastie de la bourgoisie dirty dream no 2 the boy with the arab strap slow graffiti legal man the model there's too much love jonathan david that was really hard actually... and i'm sure even harder to justify. leaving out the state i am in and women's realm and the loneliness of the middle distance runner was particularly painful. luckily i don't have to choose in reality :) matt wrote: that actual person. It all comes up a big disappointment. I just don't see love lasting forever. I don't see how it could possibly happen. I'm sure it can somewhere, but I've never seen it. I'd like to believe in love, but it seems more like an idea than an actual thing. and the pernice brothers wrote:

it fills me with regret. i can't believe in love, and i want to believe.

so you're in good company, matt. i reckon once you do love someone it will be completely different from anything up to that point, and you won't even remember that there was ever a distinction between the idea and actual thing... take it from of a reformed cynic. speaking of love, congratulations ailsa and neil. give them both a big kiss from me ally :) got to catch the post, or god only knows what the peacehaven writer's circle will do. luv archel *************************************** archel@iname.com For the best in new writing on the web, visit www.buzzwords.org.uk Contact us on buzzwords@bigfoot.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister@missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo@missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+